It's the first day of school and I wasn't excited about it. I'm gonna talk about him of course. I'm feeling a lil bit nervous to face him today. He talked a lot. I didn't have the mood to talk to him actually. Tho I was a lil bit happy about it. Just that.. I really want to let my feelings go,since I felt almost nothing to him. Well..almostt. And I wanted to.. you know.. make the feeling disappear. Hrmm.. my fren next to me gave me and him ferrero rocher. She gave me first. Then when he came and sat in front of us, my fren gave him the chocolate. I just looked at him and smile. I wasn't expecting anything from him. Oh yea.. his hair was back to the hair that I used to loveee. HAHA. Ohhh.. this is so not right. Back to the story, then he shared his chocolate with me and the fren next to me. Actually, I really didn't want to accept the chocolate. But then, he insisted that I should accept it. I tried to give him back. But he refused. My fren also tried but at first he refused but in the end he took that chocolate from my fren back. I tried for the second time to give him back his chocolate, but still he didn't want it. So I took it. I didn't tell him that my fren had given me the same chocolate though. It didn't matter anyway. I admit I missed him. But I don't want to get carried away anymore. My big exam is coming soon. And this is the perfect time for me to forget him. To forget my feeling towards him. Oh yea.. sir gave him a present from paris for getting a good result in the big exam in june last time. I didn't manage to get at least a C..because..I did't really do well. As usual..last minute revison. So I was kinda panic when answering the questions and may be I forgot some of the answers. Besides, I was having my maths at the same time. So yea. The results for both my maths and that subject were not so good. Where was I? Oh yea.. about the present. That present was a music thingy that always in a music box. But it's not in a box. To generate the music, the thing on the right or left side needs to be spinned on a flat surface. I'm not so good in explaning. I hope at least you get the idea how it looks like. Hehe. The music sounded very nice yet sad. I heard the music was actually for a funeral. Haha. No wonder it sounded so sad and so dark yet so beautiful. When he knew how to play it, he went a lil bit closer (he's closer already tho) to my desk and play it on my desk. Where he could actually play it on a desk in front of him or on a desk at his back which was the desk of my fren next to me. HAHA. Like.. may be I thought too much. I easily misunderstood people's actions. But in his case, I just don't want to know or to care, or else I will end up hurting my self in which I always did. So yea..whatever. Though I was happy about it, I tried myself not to be over-happy and over-excited about this thingy. To avoid that, I expressed what and how I felt about him here. HEEE :D Oh oh.. I'm not gonna come to school tomorrow. Though actually I wanted to see him again. But I have to stop that. I must try to fight my own feelings. I'm trying to protect myself from..myself? hahahaha. wtf? Oh whatever. Alright..enough about him. For now. Hahaha. Cheers people. xD.