Yes I’ve heard the world are conspired, to steal away your God-given right of beautiful house and comfortable children next you sue them for abandoning you
Duncan Sheik, Humming-“Bite your tounge”
Yes, it’s just another day in paradise when you met some old friend from the past, from mid-school to be exact, oh what a day to be remembered. We just talk and talk about the past, its good, but then we began to talk about right now and the future, there’s when things get out of hand.
How I wish that we could be like Kung-Fu Panda, “the past is history, future is mystery, the present is the gift, that’s why it called present”. But no, the past is the good old day, the future, well the only certain thing is the uncertainty, while the present is sucks, big time.
My friend told me how he ends up living his dream to be a lawyer, he got that liar-lawyer attitude that he will defend anything as long as he got paid. He always said that this is all he ever, always wanted. But somehow I knew that something missing from him, some kinda void in his heart, if a lawyer ever had one. So I asked why dude? He said that that job is consuming all of his time, well welcome to the real world dude, oh BTW, try to be a human resource like me, ditto dude.
Well after we said goodbyes, I think to myself, is this what I wanted? When we were little, we always had a dream, well most of the boys wants to be pilot, but when you think about it, is that what we wanted? When we little, we always sheltered, parents chose what is good for us, like our religion, admit it, we chose our religion because that our parents chose, and what their parents chose also to, and pilot or doctor, it probably what our parents thinks that it was cool. When I was little, I always dreamed to be a Batman, a wishful thinking that would never be true, but it gives me a confidence because I knew I chose to choose, no matter how insignificant that choice is.
I think people always had, always have, and will always has double standard, or plan B to be exact, the ideal, and the realistic. Let me put it this way, I love Jeep, but if I have money I put in city car, they are more economic and low on maintenance, or I love perfect model type girl, but I always had a vision of spending the rest of my life with the ordinary girl next door, they are more low maintenance, lesser diva-type attitude, and the skin deep beauty won’t fade cuz I love them for they attitude or sense of humor, not physical looks.
My friend, the other one, not lawyer-liar, once told me, “a want is not a need”, he sometimes said that he probably falls for a girl because he needs her, not because he wanted her. Well it’s not like that he’s a material boy that loves a girl because that girl can support his life, well in some way it’s exactly why, but not in material way. My friend is an artistic type, he sometimes freaks out, sometimes extrovert, well you know the eccentric artist type, so when a girl loves him for what he is, he will falls for that girl for what she is, a perfect give and take relationship (and damn he found exactly that kinda girl, even if the girl family are not agree with her choice of man). Or why when we were little we, boys that I, always bugging a girl that we like, we need her attention, in any kind of ways, not because we wanted to have her, we just need her.
Well, so what I always think is what my grand-daddy said, “only a fool regretting his choice”. If we had a choice, we choose it, because we wants it or needs it, stick with it. Maybe something good will come out of it. Even if we just wanted it, not because we need it. Oh I how I wish I could be Batman, I wants it!!!!