looks like life will be hell for a few weeks at most. ca wont forgive me. ca is still sad. making sarcastic n cynical remarks. refused to smile. refused to feel happy. at all. this rlationship is doomed. i dont want a breakup. but. i dont know if we need a break. im confused. i planned to go to cs tomorow. but. am i going alone? i hope not. i hope ca will be ther. :(