last night. i called him. n he hanged up on me. from that moment. i knew. therell b nothing between us. EVER! even if i keep on trying. it's impossible. he's just playing with my heart. i felt stupid. knowing that i had an intention to breakup with ca to be with him. thank god i didnt do it. THANK GOD!

today. ca came. we talked. i cried. i confessed about him. ca. was silent. i knew from that moment. ca will never blieve a word i say. ive betrayed ca's trust. and now. itll not be easy to regain it. it was very tense. when we were waiting for the cab. both of us. in the midst of crying. n yeah. we cried afterward. ca. in the cab. me. in front of the screen. watching a vid ca made for me. for our annyversary. ca cudnt blieve i kept a scret for so long. ive committed an omission  to ca. it was sad. i hurt myself by hurting ca. im sorry. but ca warned me. if i ever did the same thing again. trying to take advntage of ca's kindness. there'll be no more second chance. this is the final cut for me. im the villain. i shud be punished. i ll acept the consequences.

for now. i hope evrything will be back to normal. well, i wish.