[Submitted by condescendingcharm on August 13, 2008, 7:34 pm]
These past few days were my emo moments: two days before I turn 20 and two days after. I'm not a teenager anymore. I have no more excuse for acting bratty at some point, i have no leeway in making childish mistakes, i have no right to stop in the middle of my tracks and go back home because I just feel scared.
I dreamt about being really famous by the age of 15. Ever since I decided I wanted to pursue something non-academic, i lived an extremely frustrating life because i was looking for things way beyond my reach. But I deprived myself more because of my selfishness. I had a lot of opportunities that came my way, but i was just too self-serving to accept the challenge and start anew. Instead of appreciating the little things offered to me, cherishing sweet nothings and outplaying competition -- I wanted bigger and more prestigious opportunities, desired more acceptance from other people and resented criticisms and reconstructions. However, now that I think about it, I don't have time to sulk that much because sulking will just make everything worse. One thing I learned from life's triumphs and troubles, celebrate a little and still work a lot -- sulk for a while but work more after.
So now, at 20...-- where would i be?
Broadcasting over LBFM 97.4 because I JUST LOVE CALISTA!
*oh yeah. my dream organization ever since high school. i am not the best jock, i may never be... but i am proud to be one and will always be. this org has taught me things that i never knew i could do and those lessons made all the difference. from playing badminton to working my guts off to deliver a good Screen Play broadcast (our GoCheer Night), i am always grateful for the opportunity given to me. it frustrates me a lot that i never get the chance to really do bongga-bongga stuff with you guys and that pains me. but you guys don't know how much i appreciate your hugs, your "coleybi!!!" moments and your laughs... i am just happy to be part of The UPLB Jocks. what an honor. i am gonna carry the jock blood til the day i die. :) just a thought! can i do just one vote (space) title of the song (space)?! it is so myx vj tho, hahaha! Calista rocks! waha!
After Heading a huge and hardcore event, i'll be participating more org events all throughout!
* Gandingan is one of my greatest accomplishments and one of my fondest memories. moe and i really made a great team. :) UPCBS has given me the great honor to organize that one great awarding ceremony. TO CBS: I love you guys and always will. you don't know how much your trust meant to me. however, there are some circumstances that are beyond my control and sacrifices to be made. i'm sorry it was the org that had to suffer on my account.i knew my decision was hard to do, but i did not know it would be tougher after. But believe me,i know that you do and you can feel it, that the org is in good hands -- in CA's hands.kudos, CBS... we are doing so great. i am a proud member and a soon-to-be-alumna! haha! :)
After heading a paper, i would sure be in the writing business
* being the EIC made a huge difference. i may not be the best choice to be one, but i was!haha. it was a very excruciating but rewarding experience. even if that semester made me swore newspapers that much, LB times humbled me in more ways than one. Turn write,be sharp. I did!
Voting, practice my exercise to vote
* i believe in voting, i've already expressed my opinion, my stand, my choice. how about you, have you ever voted? i mean, really voted?
After I stayed and "worked" in a different country, i sure be having some stints abroad
* laos, laos, laos. gawd, i loved that place. it was the perfect time to chill, to experience new culture, to work on something i love doing, which is writing -- not hard-hitting news or feature -- but lighter stories with a touch of hope, that life is still actually worth living for.
Publishing stories -- in an international paper!
* wee, those articles. i am so proud. even my supervisor/editor loved my style. for the first time an editor loved me (no pun intended)! those stories were simple yet it made the paper pretty cool!
Travelling
* experiencing different cultures, the best way to learn. i am not only talking about the countries i've been, but also people i've met and communities my groupmates have visited and have established ties with.
I dreamt about being really famous by the age of 15. Ever since I decided I wanted to pursue something non-academic, i lived an extremely frustrating life because i was looking for things way beyond my reach. But I deprived myself more because of my selfishness. I had a lot of opportunities that came my way, but i was just too self-serving to accept the challenge and start anew. Instead of appreciating the little things offered to me, cherishing sweet nothings and outplaying competition -- I wanted bigger and more prestigious opportunities, desired more acceptance from other people and resented criticisms and reconstructions. However, now that I think about it, I don't have time to sulk that much because sulking will just make everything worse. One thing I learned from life's triumphs and troubles, celebrate a little and still work a lot -- sulk for a while but work more after.
So now, at 20...-- where would i be?
Broadcasting over LBFM 97.4 because I JUST LOVE CALISTA!
*oh yeah. my dream organization ever since high school. i am not the best jock, i may never be... but i am proud to be one and will always be. this org has taught me things that i never knew i could do and those lessons made all the difference. from playing badminton to working my guts off to deliver a good Screen Play broadcast (our GoCheer Night), i am always grateful for the opportunity given to me. it frustrates me a lot that i never get the chance to really do bongga-bongga stuff with you guys and that pains me. but you guys don't know how much i appreciate your hugs, your "coleybi!!!" moments and your laughs... i am just happy to be part of The UPLB Jocks. what an honor. i am gonna carry the jock blood til the day i die. :) just a thought! can i do just one vote (space) title of the song (space)?! it is so myx vj tho, hahaha! Calista rocks! waha!
After Heading a huge and hardcore event, i'll be participating more org events all throughout!
* Gandingan is one of my greatest accomplishments and one of my fondest memories. moe and i really made a great team. :) UPCBS has given me the great honor to organize that one great awarding ceremony. TO CBS: I love you guys and always will. you don't know how much your trust meant to me. however, there are some circumstances that are beyond my control and sacrifices to be made. i'm sorry it was the org that had to suffer on my account.i knew my decision was hard to do, but i did not know it would be tougher after. But believe me,i know that you do and you can feel it, that the org is in good hands -- in CA's hands.kudos, CBS... we are doing so great. i am a proud member and a soon-to-be-alumna! haha! :)
After heading a paper, i would sure be in the writing business
* being the EIC made a huge difference. i may not be the best choice to be one, but i was!haha. it was a very excruciating but rewarding experience. even if that semester made me swore newspapers that much, LB times humbled me in more ways than one. Turn write,be sharp. I did!
Voting, practice my exercise to vote
* i believe in voting, i've already expressed my opinion, my stand, my choice. how about you, have you ever voted? i mean, really voted?
After I stayed and "worked" in a different country, i sure be having some stints abroad
* laos, laos, laos. gawd, i loved that place. it was the perfect time to chill, to experience new culture, to work on something i love doing, which is writing -- not hard-hitting news or feature -- but lighter stories with a touch of hope, that life is still actually worth living for.
Publishing stories -- in an international paper!
* wee, those articles. i am so proud. even my supervisor/editor loved my style. for the first time an editor loved me (no pun intended)! those stories were simple yet it made the paper pretty cool!
Travelling
* experiencing different cultures, the best way to learn. i am not only talking about the countries i've been, but also people i've met and communities my groupmates have visited and have established ties with.