[Submitted by rouju on July 26, 2008, 11:35 pm]
Not so long ago, (two days ago approximately) I met with an old friend in a mall (we’re still a mall-rats), back from the mid-high school days. Man it sure bring backs memories. We used to pretend like we are the king of the world, and everything will always go on our way. Nothing can stop us, we’re invincible. Wow, the good old days.
I mean, it’s not like we are a bunch of smart people or some cool gang or something, it’s just how the world are so easy back then. The world seems so simpler, and we still believe that everything can happen when you believe. Every time you made a mistake it’s just a lesson learned. Everyday is a new day tomorrow will be better than today. Hell I even still love Disney’s movies (it’s not like it’s bad or something, it’s just that now I know that the happily ever after, the ending part is just the beginning of something, which is a never ending cycle story that usually tends to get sucks with each sequel, but that’s what life is isn’t it?).
As we sat down on some restaurant and have a little chat about what happen when we went high school, went to college, and eventually how the real world hit us with reality bites. The supposed to be happy reunion turns into a massacre, a funeral.
My friend told me that now he joined me to the dark side and turns into a wage slaves and corporate robot, just like me, and stop chasing his dream as a racer (amateur that is, the street illegal type). He realize that being a racer is not enough to support his life, and now he started to think about marriage, he afraid that he can’t support his soon-to-be-family. There’s to much uncertainty, and insecurity.
My other friend told me that he gave away his dream to open a hobby shop (comics and figures shop), well he once opened a shop. But then he realize that there is something more than just to live a dream, once you achieved it, comes the hardest part, maintain it. And that is what happens, he went broke. He gave me an advice, “don’t make you’re hobbies as a job. You’ll end up hating it. The once unconditioned love will turn into some profit – loss calculation which only ends up to , stress, hatred. And we all know how thin is the line between love and hate Aditya my friend.”
As for me, well my friends know that I’ll live a dull life from day zero. Since they know why I love Batman. The grim, the dark Neal Adams-Batman really inspire me from the start. Just like him I always see the bad side of everything, and I won’t set my hope and expectation high, so I won’t be disappointed by it. And strangely, I’m the least unhappy person in that table, since I come prepared for the worst in life.
After we finished our meal, shared our story and say goodbye to each other, I realize that this is life, this is how the world works, life’s a bitch sometimes. There are some dreams that can’t be reached, some hope or promises that can’t be fulfilled. And this life is more than just us, it’s a bowl full of every other people with the same dream, no wonder if not all of us could become number one, hell, some people said it’s lonely at top. Life’s it’s just a roller coaster trip, sometimes your on top, sometimes you’re not.
But then again, this ain’t paradise, but it’s all we’ve got. If you can’t be with the one you love, love the one you’re with. Maybe it’s like walking through a tunnel, it’s dark, you can’t see what ahead, but to turn back will be a waste of time, so we just move along. Maybe the tunnel will be over soon, maybe it’s never ending, but maybe in the end of the tunnel there will be some light or a happy place. So we just deal with it, it’s not like we scared of the future, but we know that future is the only thing that didn’t last, the past is a small reminder that the pain is real.
Well, after all that happened, we still looking forward to the days that our fate is intertwined once again, and maybe we all could provide some sort of happy ending to be shared among us then. At least we’re not afraid to hope, while still prepared for the worst things to come.
I mean, it’s not like we are a bunch of smart people or some cool gang or something, it’s just how the world are so easy back then. The world seems so simpler, and we still believe that everything can happen when you believe. Every time you made a mistake it’s just a lesson learned. Everyday is a new day tomorrow will be better than today. Hell I even still love Disney’s movies (it’s not like it’s bad or something, it’s just that now I know that the happily ever after, the ending part is just the beginning of something, which is a never ending cycle story that usually tends to get sucks with each sequel, but that’s what life is isn’t it?).
As we sat down on some restaurant and have a little chat about what happen when we went high school, went to college, and eventually how the real world hit us with reality bites. The supposed to be happy reunion turns into a massacre, a funeral.
My friend told me that now he joined me to the dark side and turns into a wage slaves and corporate robot, just like me, and stop chasing his dream as a racer (amateur that is, the street illegal type). He realize that being a racer is not enough to support his life, and now he started to think about marriage, he afraid that he can’t support his soon-to-be-family. There’s to much uncertainty, and insecurity.
My other friend told me that he gave away his dream to open a hobby shop (comics and figures shop), well he once opened a shop. But then he realize that there is something more than just to live a dream, once you achieved it, comes the hardest part, maintain it. And that is what happens, he went broke. He gave me an advice, “don’t make you’re hobbies as a job. You’ll end up hating it. The once unconditioned love will turn into some profit – loss calculation which only ends up to , stress, hatred. And we all know how thin is the line between love and hate Aditya my friend.”
As for me, well my friends know that I’ll live a dull life from day zero. Since they know why I love Batman. The grim, the dark Neal Adams-Batman really inspire me from the start. Just like him I always see the bad side of everything, and I won’t set my hope and expectation high, so I won’t be disappointed by it. And strangely, I’m the least unhappy person in that table, since I come prepared for the worst in life.
After we finished our meal, shared our story and say goodbye to each other, I realize that this is life, this is how the world works, life’s a bitch sometimes. There are some dreams that can’t be reached, some hope or promises that can’t be fulfilled. And this life is more than just us, it’s a bowl full of every other people with the same dream, no wonder if not all of us could become number one, hell, some people said it’s lonely at top. Life’s it’s just a roller coaster trip, sometimes your on top, sometimes you’re not.
But then again, this ain’t paradise, but it’s all we’ve got. If you can’t be with the one you love, love the one you’re with. Maybe it’s like walking through a tunnel, it’s dark, you can’t see what ahead, but to turn back will be a waste of time, so we just move along. Maybe the tunnel will be over soon, maybe it’s never ending, but maybe in the end of the tunnel there will be some light or a happy place. So we just deal with it, it’s not like we scared of the future, but we know that future is the only thing that didn’t last, the past is a small reminder that the pain is real.
Well, after all that happened, we still looking forward to the days that our fate is intertwined once again, and maybe we all could provide some sort of happy ending to be shared among us then. At least we’re not afraid to hope, while still prepared for the worst things to come.