Singapore
Try to manage my life in here, alot changed, and try to adapt with it. What i like live here is ...the FOOD haha...i think most of my spend is for food. APRIL"S FOOL's DAY i forgot.. can't disturb my friends here..lol. My mum do make a bet with my aunt, that i'll can't stand at Singapore for 2 months, because...i usual with 'boss' and 'relax' style leaving at Indonesia. I think the one who lose is my mum..haha....coz..i think i could stand of leaving at here.... I like Singapore man..because one the Food, 2. All the very nice art event. (I love die die love art and movie), 3. I enjoy work here, and the colleague also nice. 4. Is my dream from before i wan to stay here.
I planning to build my life here, with who? try to alone first, fight for myself. the Rest later lah...
second week i'm working, i fell down beside my office haha...because my blur of my eyes not enuff slept, and fell . The Result : My knee bleeding and can't walk properly for a week,
In this month, i also take a vaccination of my antibody, and the doc said next month i must comeback and take the 2nd Vaccination.
This month is the transition time of my love, and life......
Love : And one day, from search search and search process to try make my mind not focuss in L. Here's coming V, nice person but childish. V was keep contacted me and asked me to meet and finally i agreed and we met. Met for the first time, i just normal normal and like a fren. but the next day asked me to became couple. Shocked but i just try and accepeted it. I'm sure i wit V not because love but i thik just fill my time and companion, i knew it's not fair, i got told V also about this, but V kept insist wan to try it. So just let it be....
What happen to L? after the stupidness things, i became very rare to met and talked wit L. I kept blaming my self, how can i let that times happen. my childish killed me slowly....i even not dare to talk when i saw L online, i said to my self, i will never dare to speak wit L untill L come and talked wit me first .
Coz its a sign for me... If L saw me online and not ping me thats mean still dun wan to talked wit me or maybe wan try forgot me.(i'm not dare to take any conclusion, i just let the time the one that give me answer) and i believe when L saw me online and ping me...thats mean L wan to talked wit me). So i just kept waiting - waiting - and waiting and i live inside my sadness and locked my heart for L. i try to memorize all again, and kept all the memory with L and save it... Coz i knew i got my illness,
which is i had a short-term memory ( somekind like - i can forget things easily, even i dun wan to forget it, but i can just forget it. Good and Bad things for me... but honestly i kept think that my illness is a good things.... I just try to controlled then everythings ok, when the things i wan to just skip it...i can forget it in one night. like : i had problem today, i do ' brainwashing'and the next morning i'm forget le... but if you asked me to try and think think think...i still can remember it but not detail.. When the things i wan to keep it and memorize....i open my brain and try to think and memorized everything...and keep think of it..and ta da....i can remembered but can't every detail (this one i can't manage how to memorize every detail) but as long as i still can save the moment in every event, its enuff le...even i got sad la, coz not all detail i wan i can memorize.....but what to do. i try my best to save the last moment.
Long journey but i still keep waiting.
Meanwhile, V and me try to walk together, which i knew i just can't open my heart for V. I only filled it with one person. V actually is good and nice...but i just can reply with my care back, and if like? ok i admit i like coz understanding and hows V thinking .....if ask me to love ..i think i still can not...