So I'm going back to sch on 14 april, Mon. A lot of ppl who are working or not working are asking me how does it feel to be studying again. I must say it feel very bad. Cause I got to go and memorise stuffs and get in contact wit ppl. I dun interact well with ppl sometimes. Sometimes I can really click very well but most of the times, it is a failure. But at least I hope I can see my dear more often in sch. I better study hard but I just can't seem to do it. I just can't make myself be more serious abt my study. My parents seem to tink that I will study hard but they are so wrong.. When I'm studying, I need ppl to push me to do it. Studying is really a chore. Used so much of my brain and cause me so much ache. Make me feel slpy & tired too. But in Singapore, ppl only talk abt qualification when you work.  If you are a diploma holder, it is also quite useless. You need to be a degree holder before you get the minimum request from others. It is just so sucky. It just mean that I really have to work hard on it cause I dun want to be look down again but I just can't do it... No matter what, I will just have to force myself. Cause I do not want to go back to the past year experience of working as temp. It's just terrible... ppl giving you all the shit work...feeling so tired all the time...

I'm so depressed again that the laptop I brought in sch was more expansive than what they sell outside. I can't believe it. I am con out of my money! By the sch! Why am I so dumb. Why did I brought it so early. Why act so kiasu like typical singaporean? So kan chio(anxious) so what! Those money are hard to come by for my family. There are really very very very precious to me. (ok, like who dunno money is very precious) And now I have help to spend half of it away in my bank acct, furthermore on something that I could have save on. A few hundreds that I could have save on! This is so sucky. Such a disaster. I feel like killing myself for it. And Tania didn't even told me that they are selling Acer com cheaper outside. No wonder she is not buying Acer at the very 1st place, cos she knew all abt the price of it. Really feel so angry abt it.

So orientation is tml...Wonder what will they talk abt it... who is my members..& I'm still so confused abt a lot of things regarding the sch online things. I really want to access my NYP mail but they did not teach me online and I am lazy to find out more too. Then all those lectures that I have to take. Oh ya, dunno if I shld feel happy that I will be going for orientation halfday cos I have dental appt in the afternoon. Anyway my teeth is getting straighter. =) Yes, that make me so much happy, thinking abt it.  

& I really felt shocked that I have recieved gift from my company when I leave them. But I am glad to take it cause I know how much energy and effort I have pour out for them. Just feel so appreciated... but I tink rozanna play a major part in getting this gift thing together. Really must thank her alot. But anyway, I like her a lot too and I am definitely maintaining my contact wit her. Am so glad that I have know her. Standing up for me or her friends in front of ppl who are impt. It really warm my heart to have someone to do that for me.