Finally, I found time to blog again. Well, mainly because I've quite a bit to spit out. Lol.
A few nights ago, I received a call from my good ol' sis Lee, and it's not just any kind of call - it's an overseas call from Germany. Honestly, I kinda missed her lots since I last saw her last year. I hope she and her family are doing fine there. If it's possible, I wanna go there and visit her.
For these 9 minutes, we had a a good chat, cos there was lots to talk about. At least, for her to catch up on. However, the one thing I feel she shouldn't have caught up on was the beef/fallout I had with my ex-good friends. When she mentioned it to me, I actually felt bad about it because I didn't want her to worry too much, especially when she's overseas. In case you're wondering what beef that was, it was kinda detailed in my previous blog entries. If that still ain't clear, I sincerely apologise for my incoherence. Back to topic, it was, on the overall, nice to hear from Lee again, and that's she's well. Keep in touch, yeah? (:
On the other hand, I was pretty displeased that apparently someone had read my blog, yet chose to tell someone else about it instead of thrashing it out to me face-to-face. How very cowardly. *rolling eyes* It also pretty much reflects on how cold, aloof and unapproachable I am, which I can be at times. Cold, I can be at times. Thanks to you guys, you have just made me an even colder person. The dagger that pierced my heart just got deeper. From last year, that dagger had hurt me deep.
I may have said it before, but I will say it one more time: I treat you guys nicely and this is what you have paid me back in return. When you ask me out to hang out together, I agreed readilly, regardless of my own situations. And now that the VIP is back, I got cast aside. From how I perceive it, I am nothing but his substitute. Because of that, I felt horribly betrayed. Is it my fault? Yes, it's my fault that I am this naive to have trusted you all to be my friend.
Someone once told me, "You may think he/she's your friend, doesn't mean he/she will think of it the same way". I certainly have to agree with her on that point. To them, I am simply nothing.
Which leads me to last Sunday, when I had the time of my life with the little gathering and K-session I had with Anthony, Nysz, Lynn, Liya, Feza, Rinie and Ad-Liana. You guys rawked!! And oh, did I forget to mention that it was made even better when THEY didn't turn up that day? Hallelujah~!! Had they showed up, I would long have stormed out of the restaurant and missed out on a absolutely show-stopping K-session. I would never want to sit with these people together ever again! If I have to, I would rather sit alone.
For these people, I would hand them the Razzies, for allowing me to learn my lesson the extremely hard way. Thanks to you, I will be wearing these scars for everyone to see. As for those who were with me last Sunday, including the birthday girl ... here's an Oscar for you guys - you rocked!!!
Until then, auf wiedersen!! Hope all be well for me soon as I try to forget those who stabbed me in the back and move on with others who really derserve my friendship more than them. If you're nice to me, I'll be even nicer. I return things back tenfold.