From the time i steps in at 1.30pm, i feel something bad gonna be happen.the meeting is about ought to be camp motivation. that's suppose will be organized by this weekend. Actually, this camp itself have lots of problem. i can say its non-stop happening. Then, around 1.40pm, co-ordinator in charge for this camp announced to us thet,"there's only two alternative for this camp to be success. Either,proceed the camp with one day one night or postponed the camp to the next semester. Again?? change the date again? why?? I wont grab the mic to say that i put much effort in this camp. but, the way how i put this things look fom the side from my fren that really do a lotThis is not fair and their appreciation should not be repay by this way..

My attitude after this towards camp will no longer stick to the old one. i don care what's the bullshit about commitment, teamwork, trust, effort, good preparation.. thats all they said. i don forsee this could be a success. u can try. but not to me. I say it clear here that I automatically be the pretender. pretend as very co-opeartive person. do as they want me to do. smile as they wish for. the feeling of belonging are lost already, actually.

From the first time i see how rigid this camp are. ppl don perceive it well and see this matter as simple. reject whenever they want. Im really defend to this. why should make this things out if the reality is they cnt do anything at al? i tell u, if they really concern about this matter, they wont say it only without action. give so much bullshit reason is no use at all. Like just know, the voting result for proceed the camp actually most over majority.

but, the co-ordinator influenced them. The mind actually the easiest way cos ppl are live with feeling and emotion. they will perceive what they think is good for all. But, at that time, my mind already stop. whats all the reason he gave means nothing to me. Even such decision has made, i feel nothing,Really. as the feeling for this camp already end.

im not regretting getting involve in this camp. as they say, we're one team. why couldnt they stick to the decision before and don change it till the end even being persuaded by someone? i do feel sad for those things happen in the last minutes. heartful feeling, no one really understand.When a programme being dismissed, its mean nothing much left. the heart,the feeling only last that minutes.