Since its the time to leave ,when i saw his face .it looks a bit different ..I thought maybe im just thinking to much and he dun really feel what i feel (Or maybe what i thought im feeling )..actually i not sure ,,maybe can say it as a little attraction of something more than a fren , but not actually a lust ,,not hate aso..but ..tis too many 'but' that i have to consider and reconsider the consequences..anyone understand what i feel ..? It thought alwyas to be a perfect and happy things but i never feel so ,,Maybe again ..suppose i  should create or giv a chance for myown happiness..haha..sounds too far away ,mayb  im little bit conservative ,,everytime before i try to start another new so called 'relationship' ..i totally feel out of control ..n itsx not like studies ,where u can choose to study or not ..the mind just keep thinking about the same thing over and over again , making lots of assumptions .which neither of them im going to prove whether its true or not ..things happen just in the blink of an eye ..when my ex start to get in touch with me again , which i hope he's not feeling the hurt before ..which i hope he will recover , eventhough my fren keep telling me its not easy to forget ..cal me cold-blooded , but i really dun feel sad o sorry coz im making the right decision for not keep hurting a man 's heart , (eventhough the song say its illegal to deceive a woman's heart -in my case its the man's heart)..anyway nothing posible for usz to control all the time ..szometime , im tired too and need a little  break from this...