Ow~ Sick~ I'm a dumb ass!~ err..

One of the reasons why I chose APC as my college school....
- to start again with new life!
They don't know me. They don't know anything about my background. So I can make a new impression.

But then, as I entered the ground, the usual self I got into.
I'm timid and shy. Quiet.

Wat da?! I thought I can change the way I relate to people. All I wanted that time is, they'll know that I'm so naughty and talkative. I wanted it to be their first impression about me.

The main reason why I wanted to change their impression about me?

It' because, if they know you as a "good" girl, they'll change the way they relate to you when they'll find out that you've done something not quite right.

Am i right? that's the "world's rules". Live with it! You've got to be strong.

You're quite "good" - done a lil' wrong => they'll be cold to you.
You're "naughty" - done something good => they'll wonder if you're ok or you're just "plastic".
Either of the 2 examples, you turned out to be "wicked".

I guess I just have some personality disorder now..whew! wat on earth...

I guess the wheel is turning down now...better it should be!
When your'e struggling, you'll think more of God. ^_^ Luv it!

And ow! When I was in highschool, MOST of the time, I'm just a FOLLOWER. But now in APC, most of the time, I'm a LEADER.

Hate it sometimes...especially now that I have "internal problems". Sometimes, I feel like I'm irresponsible to my actions. I get paranoid sometimes thinking if my group members are thinking bad about me. ~_~

I hate to be the topic of some talks. -_-" I feel sometimes, they hate me. Ow~ If only they have known..They should just hate my actions, not me - that's one of my perceptions. They can also confront me, I'm always open. I hate to be backstabbed by someone. (I might kill the person if I'll be able to find it out.. ~_~)

haaay...ok,,gotta go! just relax and go to your usual day..leave soe legacy..the right one!

bbye! 4:30 a.m. pa q ggcng bukas.. -_-"