i arrived at my sister's rad apartment in the east village on christmas eve. it's been five months since i've seen her, and this visit is much needed. for christmas day, my sister said that she had already made plans. i presumed it to be plans that entailed a nice dinner, or watching a show. it was natural that i assumed that. but, after finding out what we were really going to do, i felt a bit ignorant. she had signed us up to feed the needy in brooklyn. most people do not realize that going to a nice dinner, or watching a production IS a luxury. this was a reminder. another instance to admit that i AM fortunate, and i have become conscious of that. christmas has come to represent a capitalistic affair. the process of opening presents, and exchanging gifts IS definitely enjoyable and thoughtful. the decorations, music and all that...i mean, i guess it's great. however, do people get so caught up with the aspect of consuming rather than giving? i'm not trying to be the grinch who stole christmas. it's just that my whole perspective on christmas has evolved. it has become more of an opportunity. a chance to spend time with the ones i love.  the time to catch up, and hold insightful conversations. it was so gratifying to give back, and spend time with my family on christmas day in a new way. we served food and drinks. we gave away toys.  it was incredible. it was eye-opening.