I'm trying to forget about Ryan, but i can't. dunno why... he's suppose to mean nothing to me:(... i don't even know whether we are friends or more than that. Ryan is, just, Ryan. What can i say about him?...ur probably thinking "what's all the fuss about this guy if he's nothing?" well, tell me. enlighten me. i'm as every bit as confuse as u are. if he's nothing, then why on earth am i wasting my time writing, or even mentioning him in here?

ryan & i met when we went to a club together, and what i can say about that night is that we just clicked. there is an unmistakable spark (or at least i thought we had...)between us. "Can't tAKE mY eYES oFF u" was at the background & he just took my hand & ask me for a dance. everything felt right, it was perfect. it was fun, it was exciting, it was...sweet...

that night, we spend the whole time cuddling with each other. God, it's been a long time since i felt that chemistry. i guess i was pretty hooked up with him... he asked for my number, & the rest was history...

that was a few weeks ago. and in those few weeks, we text each other but we never hang out again. i tried to ask him to meet me, but he kept on making excuses. i know, there's suppose to be a warning sign there, i guess i didn't notice it...

last morning, about 4am he txt me again after he told me he can't meet me the other day, & for the 1st time, i didn't reply & delete the message. i have to get him out of my life before it takes a toll in me. i can't do this, Ryan... i just can't . u just want me for the company. what we had that night was great, but that's about it. i'm ending this. ur playing me & i'm showing u that i'm just not that stupid. i'm sure ur a nice guy like what everyone keeps telling me, but u know, nice guys don't do that kind of thing.