"I m tired of rumours starting, ..im tired of people lying , saying what they want about me..why can they let me live,..."-Rumour(Lindsay Lohan) ...

most of the time , we thought that we know what we are thinking of, but in the end, it looks like we are persuading ourselves to believe what we should believe..i thought its just a joke, or even a rumour that we dun even bother to let everyone know that thats not the real story..but we seems to let everyone start to make their own  conclusions and predict what will happen next.I believe even we dun wan to believe that , but your fren surround will keep telling you that , yes, thats the right thing,its true and you are hiding from the truth...dont they know that by keepig reminding us on what is not true will make the rumours turn into the real fact??..its ridiculous but its true..whatever comes on your mind right now is not really wat u have been trying to do for all these while but its what people try to make you to do..do u believe that/?Sometimes , i give up..saying maybe thats not a bad idea too..but long term, u might even have to sacrifice your dignity and trust from others..they might look at u as a joke,a silly joke though..What should i do to stop all these..?maybe the nite time will be with the tears on our faces..feelig guilty or even regretting on wat we should do before...what we can do before really prove that prevention is better than cure...

Submit the rest to the nature ..not doing anything  coz as long as the world still breathing and its not the end of the world , where's there no tomorrow,,Love gonna conquer it all(That's The Way it is-Celine Dion) ???Is it true ,,? seems unbelievable and nothing promising as the time goes by , there seems to be no hope , no bright way that we can ever see the other side , whether its the heaven or hell..nothing ,,Its just a guess ,make a confident gamble , maybe u will get what u want , maybe not ,/.Maybe in the end , its doesn't even matter , i have to fall , to lose it all (In the End-Linkin PArk).Itz true and really sounds good ,..too much hesitation ,just a waste of time ..try what u wanna do before its too late ..it better than we regret it the other day when everything wont be able to get back to normal..Think about it , dream about it ..Shall our dreams really live one day , we will rejoice in His Name ..!

Since its the time to leave ,when i saw his face .it looks a bit different ..I thought maybe im just thinking to much and he dun really feel what i feel (Or maybe what i thought im feeling )..actually i not sure ,,maybe can say it as a little attraction of something more than a fren , but not actually a lust ,,not hate aso..but ..tis too many 'but' that i have to consider and reconsider the consequences..anyone understand what i feel ..? It thought alwyas to be a perfect and happy things but i never feel so ,,Maybe again ..suppose i  should create or giv a chance for myown happiness..haha..sounds too far away ,mayb  im little bit conservative ,,everytime before i try to start another new so called 'relationship' ..i totally feel out of control ..n itsx not like studies ,where u can choose to study or not ..the mind just keep thinking about the same thing over and over again , making lots of assumptions .which neither of them im going to prove whether its true or not ..things happen just in the blink of an eye ..when my ex start to get in touch with me again , which i hope he's not feeling the hurt before ..which i hope he will recover , eventhough my fren keep telling me its not easy to forget ..cal me cold-blooded , but i really dun feel sad o sorry coz im making the right decision for not keep hurting a man 's heart , (eventhough the song say its illegal to deceive a woman's heart -in my case its the man's heart)..anyway nothing posible for usz to control all the time ..szometime , im tired too and need a little  break from this...

U told me how proud u were but i walk away ..If only i knew what i know today ..(Hurt-Christina)

somehow , somewhere , people never realize that they are actually making mistakes and hurt other people hearts before they ever try to make everything start from the very beginning /Why people always being selfish and in the end maybe they start to regret it but its too late ??Start to regret and its too late ..not a little too late but  actually its just too late //

Im doing the bet that maybe we finallly realise that we cant make success alone or live alone in this world ,,no one really can stay long in this world alone .,eventhough in the end we just be on our own..that;s what my fren always  say ..its just too good to be true but thats what life is all about.maybe people are born to be selfish and its not a choice ..

Its nearly Chinese new year which im going to be one of those who should be very excited and waiting for the days to come ..maybe im just too fortunate to feel to enjoy the new year ..most children will very extremely gay when  it comes to new year  , same things goes to most of my fren ...im just being "ordinary' mood ..dun noe , its liek anotehr season of buying things , new clothes , new shoes and everythg new ..like another start ..but my mood and feeling still the old one , battling the people who i dun like at all..whatever , should my pride goes along with new year ..