well,

first day of school (after 7 mths of friggin' internship and not going back to sch for so long),

3 1/2 hours of lecture on "Media Law".

total brain-freeze and information overload.

i haven't worked my brains for that long, in a loooong time.

feeling really dumb, because all my other classmates are giving such intellectual comments, it scares the shit out of me.

it's my favourite prof, Dr. Mark Cenite, but he is calling out names randomly to answer questions and i tremble in fear each time he does that. Simply because, i have NO IDEA what he is talking about half the time, and won't know how to answer his questions at all.

LE SIGH.

why can't i be smarter?

i think i'm totally in the wrong course.

i am not a language person at all, yet here i am, trying to 'compete' with these A's students from JCs.

i should be in business, accountacy, or even engineering.

why the hell am i in media? passion, yea. it will only take me THAT far. truth is, i'd never be as good as these people.

hell i think i shouldn't even be studying in the university at all. I may have gotten in by luck, that's all. but i should be out there working my ass off.

i hate 401 already, even though it's my favourite prof, but MEDIA LAW? gosh. interesting, yet too 'deep' for me. 

i am so scared of the lessons for this module for the rest of the semester..

on the brighter side,

Audio Production II seems so much more interesting this semester.

very interesting projects.. such as a 30-minute magazine feature for the radio, a radio drama, a test on our on-air presentation skills, and the thing i'm looking forward to most, is doing a recording of songs for a band! at our very own 'studio' in school.

can't wait to work on all these projects, even though they are going to be really hard to score, but at least they are more on the technical front, and really of my interest - in the radio area.

oh well, so we had this ONE-hour lecture for audio production in school today, and THAT WAS IT. 

so my best bud and I decided to go hang out at her condo. Totally "The Hills" (the MTV show) style! we were just suntanning by her pool, chilling, and listening to the hiphop/r&b playlist on my iPod, crooning away, lol. and going into the pool after a tan, feels soooo goood.

How I wish i can move in with her, and it'd be just the 2 of us, totally, once again, like "the hills". she's more of Heidi, while I'm more like Lauren, i guess. She's more of the party animal than i am. (you'd know what i mean if you do watch The Hills).

and yea, we'd be doing this whole chill-out by the pool session whenever we get some FREE TIME in between lessons.  lol.

speaking of "the hills", i'd better go catch up on the rest of SEASON 2, before Season 3 starts next week! this is totally my favourite show, probably because I caught season 1 when I was in Orlando last summer, everytime before i go to work, and i fell in love with the show. Watching it in the US definitely feels different than watching it here, i don't know why.

that's about all for now, looking forward to the long weekend from... tomorrow evening onwards! =)  

no afternoon lessons tomo, then it's Singapore's NATIONAL DAY on thursday, and i have no lessons on Fridays.. so it's a LONG WEEKEND! woot!

Also received even MORE letters from my love, and he's suffering in boot camp now, but i'm proud of this US-marine-to-be. =) 

All right,

peace out y'all. 

Random thought:
why do they have to censor the word "SUICIDAL" in the US whenever they play Sean Kingston's video for "Beautiful Girls"?