Hye guys and gals I'm back. Sorry it took me a couple of days to write something, I'm a bit jetlagged...now a bit better..Just got back from a strolled in the park near the house while carrying my one year old niece...I remembered how much a different walking in Dresden summery yet windy thus here right very sunny and oncoming cloud could ruin this moment. It was like a part of LP new song title 'Shadow of the Day', and have you noticed that song is a bit of a U2 number 'With or without you' its sad but beautiful..

 But the like smiling japanese baby kept me at ease while pointing towards the sky of barren colour grey coming onwards...she kept me firm on ground whilst in my head I was thinking was this grey welcoming my loneliness so far or it maybe the end of a new beginning to me...if you have read my 1st blog, KS is a depression of uncertainties...and I have not been unsure throughout my life. It just me and my world where friends were second choices and mostly stayed far away from me as they could not blend in...All thoughts to myself and my friend was me, all I could do is to disagree to agree and vice versa. But hope is on the way, as the clouds was moving away yet there was no raindrops.

 
Could this be it a new beginning, as my niece smile at me. Monday will uncover the true nature of this disaster...condescendingly it will not end my spirit and will to live on. I will survive and I think that help is on the way...