well...i guess you've finally opened my eyes...all this time,i thought i could see right through people but...you totally proved me wrong...were my defences down or was your acting too good?i guess i'll never know cuz i dont have the guts to confront you about it...yeah,i can be a wimp sometimes...but probably cuz you're the one who has established roots in your territory...while i'm just passing by...even if i say anything...will it matter?or will it count against me...i personally think it'll be the latter...ya knoe...i always knew i was quiet...antisocial...not very pretty...moderately smart...a bookworm...basically,everything you're not...but i never felt it so badly til now...yeah,you're beautiful,guys love ya,girls like ya...and yeah,i might be a lil lot jealous...but thats just me...i'm not sure if i have a right to be...anyway,i'm not that close to you but i would've thought that you could've thought of me as your friend...i would've done so much for you...would you say the same for me?i thought so...until you showed your true colors...and guess what?i didnt like it...
and as for you...well,i considered you my best friend when i moved here...not immediately but after some time...i thought i knew you...you proved me wrong...yet again,i've been duped...a blindfold held over my eyes...you look so nice...but what happened to "dont judge a book by its cover"?i guess it completely slipped my mind...happens a lot these days...between feeling depressed...foolish...tired...bored...i guess my mind doesnt have a lot of space left to process that thought...i never thought it would come to this...why couldn't i see who you really were?i admit...i'm still butt-kissing you...pretending to be nice to you but i hate your guts...i'm wondering if you've been doing the same thing to me...but didnt i notice?maybe you'd been giving me looks...snide comments...but i was too deep in bliss to notice...again...i would've done so much for you...it turns out its not the same for you huh?why couldnt i see that...
omg...i'm sooooo emo right now...just ignore it...i'll get better i hope...i've just taken a huge blow to my ego...