hohoho!!! merry christmas!! just about less than a month before christmas!! hmmm..hope i get lots of presents...haha...i'm not selfish..but don't you want lots of presents too? i love christmas...its like the only time of year when i don't really care aboout my problems...its like for a whole holiday season all that matters is giving others presents and family reunions...the birth of Jesus....hot cocoa my grandma makes even though there's no snow nor is it cold enough to need hot cocoa but nonetheless its great...just the entire thing..feeling all tingly inside...as if you're always being tickled...just being merry. Today, i realized i wasn't feeling all ticklish inside..like it was just another normal day...i watch TFC and everybody's just crazy about christmas. In fact, just now, i was watching Homeboy and they were singing christmas carols. Thats when i realized i'm not really merry at all. Then I started thinking...i said maybe it was the lack of christmas decors. Singapore isn't really a Catholic country like the Philippines where you would feel christmas months away from it. I also thought maybe its my first chrismas away from my own country and not a lot of relatives were around for a family reunion. We weren't going home for christmas. Then it suddenly hit me. Christmas isn't about anything i just said! It's about Jesus! I haven't been praying lately as I haven't been arguing with my parents or scolded by them. I was living a carefree life. I got along with everyone. I feel loved. I guess I was so occupied with everything I was doing I forgot to thank God for everything...the times I always argued with my parents about my freedom and everything else...the times I was feeling everything was unfair...the times I felt rebellious.....the times I always cry myself to sleep because of heartbreak or embarassment...I prayed that I could get along with my parents for once not argue and live happily. I prayed to feel loved. I prayed for enerything to be fair. And now, I realize He granted all my prayers! He even helped me get over the fact that me and my crush aren't together! He made me see that I could be happy without my crush. I know the crush thing's shallow but hey, the time will come where I can't be as shallow and superficial as I am now...so I'm making the most out of it!! I feel the christmas spirit once more! So....Merry Christmas!!!!!! pls. vote! hehe..tnx..let me know if u do and i'll give u one too!!!
ciao, trish