this is from ♡brattyme's blog - it's answered a bit of my confusions. there are no excuses in love.
1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. - exactly.
2. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. - someone should teach us how to do this without breaking your own heart.
3. If you have ANY doubt in your mind about a man's character, leave him alone. - i didn't. maybe that's why i couldn't leave him alone.
4. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. - but what happens if it tells you to do the complete opposite?
5. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be. - hm.
6. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. - what if it's him that makes me truly happy?
7. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. - but what if he treated you so well? and it's still hard to think of him just as a friend.
8. Have faith in God regarding your relationship, but don't let faith make you stupid. God does things decent and in order. - in the end God is the only one i can put my faith in.
9. Don't settle. - how to do this when you're just so in love and can't lose him?
10. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. - it was better than better.
11. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. - control is such a dirty word.
12. There's only one 'reason' a man dumps you; he doesn't want you. - ...should have known. but noo, i had to believe my own excuses.
13. Always put yourself and your happiness first. - no can do. the person you love will always have 1st place; love's unselfish devotion.
14. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. - follow the beat of your own drum, so you'll never regret anything. i know i don't have any, except for letting him go.
15. Like from the show Sex and the City, if he doesn't call, he just isn't that interested. - the simplest love'o'meter.
16. Know when to cut the cord, don't be strung. - the least i can do is try. God preserve my determination.
sigh. din, thanks so much for being there for me yesterday. god, how i miss our talks. and my room is soooo much smaller than yours tho it looked bigger when we were video calling, you'll see. but i like it anyways. hehh.
thank god i have the most supportive friends. chanel, pris and christo, thank you. i can't imagine how the transition to perth and adapting to everything would have and nut, ron, daisy, lassie, bas, wena, xal, rabs, abang and everyone [i remember you all, but there's just tooo many! XD]; thank you. i'm sorry i rarely have time to update you guys on how things are going this side of the world, but rest assured i remember and miss you guys. i'd probably already be 6 feet under without all your support, you guys know how weak i can be. i'm still here because of you guys.
aaaannnnnndddd.... a belated birthday to ronnie!! <3- hehh, we'll be 20 next year ay sweetheart? don't you feel old too? lol. god i miss you =( i miss daisy too: dahling, a happy advanced birthday to you, just in case i don't get to go online on the day =p <3- hehh; i wonder if i still sound canadian to you now XD we really have to catch up soon aite?? *HUG*
mom's birthday is tomorrow!! =D and nut's is the day after that!! =D miss my ummi and my bestie =( and i miss playing pool. i remember i loved to play when i was stressed. it definitely helps. [though the ball flying everywhere was definitely a drawback for everone... ^^;]
din, i can't wait till you come over =(
you guys don't know how much i need you here... ='(
don't mind me, i'm all over the place. one minute i'm ok, the next i'm all wierd.
was on friendster sending testis XD i'm in the lab with christo, chanel, zerxez [sp? XD], pris & nigel. they're all busy with ID assignment while i've been on friendster and writing this blog for the past 2 hours. i'mma gonna fail~~
hum. sighness. i'mma go and do work now. relaxation time's over. gonna be in uni till 9. and another full day tomorrow at uni as well.
can't wait till everything's done with.
i need a change, badly.
and damn, hope The Fast and The Furious Tokyo Drift's coming out here soooon. god. i need an adrenaline rush.
adieu, love your resident draculina.
ps: wish me luck for exams. at the rate i'm going, i'm gonna need it. ^^;
_x.♥