have you experienced how to love unconditionally? giving your all, laying all your cards? what happened? is it a sin to love somebody more than yourself? why is that so? isn't it that loving means giving and not expecting anything in return? is it true? then why do people want their partner to love them back? to do the same things that they're doing for their other half?

am i a martyr? i gave my all, but you know what? im not being reciprocated. i am continously being hurt. is it really love? how can i wake up from this dream...expecting that i will be loved the way i am loving that person? how long will i wait? will i always beg for that person to stay, not to leave, to just pity me if that person could'nt love me anymore?

how?