Today is the final day of the June....
Life : I went to party last saturday, its mean on June 28th.(^^) Like usual...monthly gathering wit my old frens... and go to the same place - Le Baroque -Chijmes...New band singer...nice voice and nice song...and we are chit chat and talk talk...after a long week that we passed..sharing problem...sad things..good things...happy things...all together and share it out. 4ladies + 2guys?haha....the guys ...we all disturb them...all the songs that the band;s singer sing, we follow to sing it....and every sentence of the song that lead to say guys, we all point to the guys..haha...and they shy..haha...really never have a fun like this for long time... nice weekend...till one of my fren down a.k.a drunk...we go back, but i'm not straightly go back..i went to fecth awen..at china town ktv...she's get drunk...haha...really really tiring nite but have fun...
Work : My company become the first of the company in singapore that hit the highest of quality score for building and construction in institution project...hohohoho....a bit proud..(*thats mean more bonus to get hahahahahaha (^^)v*). After whole day meeting today...hm...at least got do something that make my self proud =D hahaha...after a long nite i draw the A1 x 3 size of flow chart....haha...and stick it on meeting room..and do the presentation..and quite success hahah....everyone happy...me more relax...haha...after meeting..i oni walk there walk here..chat wit colleague..very funny things....blue monday? not for me this time ...hahaha..
Tomorrow will go to NUS Campus..for school? no la..not so rich can school again...we've got new project for new faculty...tomorrow go to site work...fiuh...scare i can be very dark dark..haha...
Target : QM (^^) - cross fingered..hope can reach and become true... wan make something that my family proud of me
The world's first moving building, an 80-storey tower with revolving floors giving a shifting shape, will be built in Dubai, its architect says.
http://www.dynamicarchitecture.net/intro-high-resolution.html
The Dynamic Tower design is made up of 80 pre-fabricated apartments which will spin independently of one another.
"It's the first building that rotates, moves, and changes shape," said architect David Fisher, who is Italian, at a news conference in New York.
"This building never looks the same, not once in a lifetime," he added.
The 420-metre (1,378-foot) building's apartments would spin a full 360 degrees, at voice command, around a central column by means of 79 giant power-generating wind turbines located between each floor.
SINGAPORE
My work going to enter the 3rd month in June, thats mean my probation is almost over. Hoping my company accept me as permanent position....My grandma everyday cooked food for me, i think i'm fat..haha...and more..i sick again...i can't stand it, i just cured and now i fell sick again, after i analyze....i just realized, it's because i skip my vaccination time, supposed to be last 2 months i got my vaccination but i skip it. now i knew it's the affect if i skip, so i think end of this month i'll go take the 2nd vaccination (cross fingered) i'm hoping no need to take the 1st time le, coz i gap from 1st - 2nd is almost 2 months. I scare do injection.
This month i less met V coz i need accompany my grandma, i brought her go dinner, go walk walk, go relative house. Awen (my aunt that 2 years older wit me) is changed job, now she's jobless and had time to accompany my grandma at home, when went out, we together, share and treat my grandma.
What i know : Living standard in here very high, we went for shopping at carrefour and giant , spend $200. Faint...
きおく - every detailed moment is memorized and can't be erased...
Love : Me and L more often to met each other, we had our first movie together , KUNGFU PANDA, never forgot the movie..L said, can feel i so and deeply love wit L. L said like this, make me more want show my love more and more, and L suggest how if met for once a week in Friday morning and sent me go office. I really happy when heard that...suddenly all's change and i can feel L Care and love to me... But i still dunno about the Feeling, and i also dun wan make it as an issue. What i know i try to memorized..every moment with L...i scare i lost it again.
With V, starting not stable, we kept quarrel a small things, and what i feel is we are not understading each others. V started to demanding...and i started to more view things based in the position.
Singapore
My grandma coming for holiday, coming together with my mum's brother's wife..(called her mrs.N) , very irritating coz the kids...yeah the kids...very very noisy,..and yeah Singapore Arts Festival is started.. i go attend the opening ceremony...its really really great event ....
I starting abit tired in working....i sleep late and wake early...i starting go to Project Site and learn about the contruction building...
Nothing changed in May, just more movie i watched, more nice food i try (which i forgot how to go there), more friends( i met a gal from LASALLE SIA, quite interesting like design as me ).
I also keep recently sick, in May i sick for 2 times, i think i need some Vitamin...Help..helpp....
Love : With V still going smoothly, even i never told V about my feeling truly, but still my feeling had not changed...i still can't love V, I secretly in silence of my heart i still keep thinking and loving L, but L still never contacted me.
くり返す - i thought it's lost...time keep changing but it's keep repeatin coming back to me
Middle of the MAY...suddenly L appeared again..via online.it's more like Blossom season in my life (not Sakura blossom ok)...suddenly all become very colourfull...I really deeply fall in L again.. L ping me online and we talked about how are we, how's life,how's love and we decided to met again.
Very nervous, happy, all feeling is mixed, and i went to met L, smile and kept smile always picture in my face. Is L really become my picture perfect in my heart? yes. i can answer it's yes..L really make me blind of all the things...but can i become L's Picture Perfect? the answer is no. L really really still love with the gal. Me? L also like me, love ? i dunno,i just knew L got feeling with me, but i dunno what's The Feeling.
Singapore
Try to manage my life in here, alot changed, and try to adapt with it. What i like live here is ...the FOOD haha...i think most of my spend is for food. APRIL"S FOOL's DAY i forgot.. can't disturb my friends here..lol. My mum do make a bet with my aunt, that i'll can't stand at Singapore for 2 months, because...i usual with 'boss' and 'relax' style leaving at Indonesia. I think the one who lose is my mum..haha....coz..i think i could stand of leaving at here.... I like Singapore man..because one the Food, 2. All the very nice art event. (I love die die love art and movie), 3. I enjoy work here, and the colleague also nice. 4. Is my dream from before i wan to stay here.
I planning to build my life here, with who? try to alone first, fight for myself. the Rest later lah...
second week i'm working, i fell down beside my office haha...because my blur of my eyes not enuff slept, and fell . The Result : My knee bleeding and can't walk properly for a week,
In this month, i also take a vaccination of my antibody, and the doc said next month i must comeback and take the 2nd Vaccination.
This month is the transition time of my love, and life......
Love : And one day, from search search and search process to try make my mind not focuss in L. Here's coming V, nice person but childish. V was keep contacted me and asked me to meet and finally i agreed and we met. Met for the first time, i just normal normal and like a fren. but the next day asked me to became couple. Shocked but i just try and accepeted it. I'm sure i wit V not because love but i thik just fill my time and companion, i knew it's not fair, i got told V also about this, but V kept insist wan to try it. So just let it be....
What happen to L? after the stupidness things, i became very rare to met and talked wit L. I kept blaming my self, how can i let that times happen. my childish killed me slowly....i even not dare to talk when i saw L online, i said to my self, i will never dare to speak wit L untill L come and talked wit me first .
Singapore..
Early of the MARCH, big leap for my work life. I received alot incoming calls for job's interview, they said i'm lucky because in a week (whole week) can get so many schedule for interview. Finally, on 12th March i get a job. They accepted me and started to work from 14th March.
Thats mean, i ruin my planning... In two days how i go back to my hometown and get my stuff come here? I think - think - think...I decided not go back, i just try to survive using what clothes i had, then i'll waiting someone from my hometown who came here, then i just asked them to bring along my things. And all done....
Started from 14th March i join the company, its contruction company, but i'm in charge for IT and after 1 week works on there, the job is multipy 2 times, i'm in charge for Quality Department and also for ISO certification. Quite nice, coz it's all new for me, and i learning learning learning new things...plus my colleague, all is nice and takecare of me...What i like? i like the food in this company provided...(^^,)hehehe
Family : MyGrandma is the happiest person, after knew about my job. my mum happy also but abit stress, (^^)v coz if i'm not go back, thats mean she'll be alone to do the business. MY bro - Keep thinking that i go to Singapore for meet Jay Chow (lol) after i bluff him, i come here to meet him truly i'm not, and still keep believe me about Jay things.....(everytime i remember about this things, i always laugh)
Love : L and me still meeting but starting rare, my feeling ya..honestly i kept fell - fell, and fell love. even i knew, it's not right. But my think is L also had a feeling toward me, but not big as mine. But i 'm not dare to sure of it. And i'm not dare to ask, i'm not dare to know more deeper, i just not dare to deal the truth. So i just keep going to met L, but something happen between us, because my stupidness(i suspect) i more and more rare contact with L.
in February - yeah it's Valentine - a Love Month...(they said) and its Lunar New Year (LNY) (^^)
Beginning of February is a nice week, Lunar New Year celebration, family coming from anywhere, Ath is go back to her hometown. Nice Food and never ending eating plus the cookies...yummy, btw my mum''s back from Singapore already, and never talk about Mr. anymore. We change our phone numbers, and not let anybody know(just some relative). In this month, i also buy a new car (after my old car, Mr sold it without i know and misuse the $). So when the Lunar New Year, i got new car le...(^^)v First car with my name on it...haha...but i still pay the installment la until now(June). So after LNY, i keep finding a jobs, but still not get any incoming call. So i planning, 2 weeks after LNY, 1 week after V-Day, i go to Singapore to stay for 2 weeks and try to get a job. The Rules is like this :
- If I get a Job in 2 weeks, i'll go back to Indo faster and get my things and back to Singapore again, and start to work.
- If 'm not get a job in 2 weeks, i'll go back to Indo and stay there until middle of the Year and back to Singapore and looking for a job again.
Ath after LNY, still comeback to my hometown...I abit pressure already, when cameback. After i said that i will go to Singapore, and will be comeback again even i got a job, like i mentioned above rules. Ath agreed, and said will help my mum also for temporary, to continue my new business. Then my planning is ok you help her, but anytime wan to leave here, just leave, i'm not banned or tie you wit anythings. I also dun wan to feel burden.Finally the Day i must leave and go to Singapore. Ath cry when i leaved, i dun feel anything le...i know i changed, but i'm not sure and not tell about my feeling.
Singapore
Arrived Singapore it's near wit my aunt (Awen)which 2 years older than me only (^^) not buy anthing for her,,,haha,,,but i always remembered her b'day. why? because...she birthday on 29th Feb. And this year have 29th in February...So Congrat's for her.
Ok this is a record for me.. I'm not touching my blog for about ...January - February - June.......Its three months...no no no...it's half year until now...(**)very long...omg. But it's ok we have a lot of time to typing-typing-and typing.
Want to say..alot happen since January 2, affect my life? yes it is. It's really a big leap in my life.
After my consideration, i dun wan to put all my daily diary in here, because : 1. I lazy to typing again. and 2. Better i summarize with my point of view, what happen in these half year, if not this page will be like an old scroll book, and you people read this will be feel boring.
After early of January, after i received my Landed Permanent Resident (LPR) of Singapore, and started to tried and tried more to searched a Job, 1 day i can submitted 50 email of Job Apllication.Fiuh....its alot. and its first time in my email inbox record got 700 email. incoming and 1000 email outgoing...Yeah its alot for me that time. But what can i said is, when that time and my email inbox reaching 700. I still haven't received any call for interview. They said maybe i'm wrong, i can't apply from my hometown(Indonesia), i must go directly to Singapore. (I still dun wan to go that time, still insist that i can apply from Indonesia, coz i think its will be cheaper alot if i apply from here, and if got any call i just fly to Singapore, i consider from my expense and transportation tic.).
Status : Ath still stay my place,still with me, and my feeling changed alot...I still contact with L, but very very rare.... never hoping too much again, coz i know...I'm not the one. the another word : i am 'hopeless. Some more never met before with L. So i think its just an illusion feeling.