he told me that he liked me..way way before pa..yet im not happy..i guess that's because i know deep inside he still is waiting for ehem..his past.
i just can't understand why does he still hold on to it!? why can't he just let go of it??
he sucked.
november 1, 2007
01:41 am
---wla akung mgwa,,tulog na ang aking mga kasama.
tsk..pesteng ulan im stuck sa house ng tropa ko..tsk..pero ayos lng kalmado nman dto eeh..hah..
update sa buhay ko this past days:
"BAKAsyon"
oct 26: muiklban..guestband:kjwan,radioactive sago, at join d club ang tumugtog. nanalo: gayuma mga taga tanauan,batangas. nawala ang aking bag, ang mga laman ay mp3, cellphone, pera at damet. hehe kaya ntulog aku sa bhay ni "tropa" alam na..hehe..aun..kmi'y ng-usap at aking ntuklasang di na nya bblikan ang knyang ex. na may syotang iba ngunit bnabalikan xa.whew..ngunit bakas pding siya'y umiibig dto.(ouch)kmi'y ng-usap pa ng mtgal at aku'y knyang inakap sa di mlmang dhilan..(kileg)
oct 27: natagpuan nmin ang aking bag..ntanggay pla ng aking kaklase. rejoice! dumaitng din ang aming mga kaibigang tga ibang lugar--dayo. ngunit sila'y iniwan nmen.hah.-----di pdin aku umwi, dhil kmey nagdiwang pa dahil trip lng nmen...
oct 28: ikatlong araw na pagbbkasyon...nagmistulang nature trip ang aming trip dhel liblib ang pook na aming pinuntahan upang magdiwang ulit..at dumating si "tropa" gobas. kmi'y ng-away ngunit ngbati din kgad..at aku'y hnatid nya.
----wlang kwenta pero mkabuluhan ito para sa akin. bket? ewan ku..dhel cgro may nksma akung killer----ng ng..ewn bsta killer maaring lamok, langaw, baboy , manok..ewn..adik---sa tulog, sa chocolate, sa alak...bhala kna..
damn..i have this girl friend who hooks up with boys that have girlfriends..as-in major hook-up..,but i am not aware because i also have my own world..i usually dont mind her..cause she's a big girl already..damn i am against her acts but what can i do..its her life..the bad part im caught in the middle of the girlfriends and my friend..because those girlfriends are all pregnant and their away from their boyfriends....and my friend doesn't have a phone..so no contact..and so i am the one being blamed by the girlfriends..i get all the rant and stuff..i tried playing cool with them..cause i dont want to mingle with their problems..but they kept on belting their anger out on me..its not my problem that my friend doesn't want to talk to them..its her choice not mine..but i guess those pregnant ladies seeem not to understand that....f**k that.besides why are they not mad with their boyfriends first for being an ass..i think shouldn't blame it all to my friend though she also made a mistake. besides they do know din nman that their boyfriends are assholes who can't stick with one girl!!geddemit.
i am currently listening to the early november's pretty-pretty... it's sooooo nice. hehe...
Early in the morning, wake up to a bright blue sky
lightning comes at any time to break it down and make it ugly
i know that it's just for me
'cause no one else can feel or understand
that's alright because i can handle all that you throw down
and i hope you find a perfect place
where sky's are beautiful all of the time
it's all that matters, pretty, pretty
and i know that's all you could care about
there's no reason why you can't
it's all about the icing, and nobody cares about what's inside
you could see the outside face, it looks good, it must be great
and i know that's all you see
what would it matter anyway
'cause i can see right through your pretty, pretty skin today
and i hope you find a perfect place
where sky's are beautiful all of the time
it's all that matters, pretty, pretty
and i know that's all you could care about
there's no reason why you can't
and no reason why i should try to go on anymore
my reason's all gone, no reason why you should
try to make excuses to make me feel alright
excuses call for stupid reasons
and i know that it's not much that i can offer right now
just give me one little second and i will try my hardest
to make you feel like i'm someone else.
->it just reminds me of him eeh...haay i haven't seen him for two weeks now...and it sucks...anyway..i've decided to let it go...see what will happen..
haaay..its been a week since i last saw him... he texted me yesterday..saying that he misses me..i felt like he was saying goodbye...i don't know..i miss him..yaaay..
it's been going on for months now..you see i have this "tropa" whom i like A LOT.and we've been hangging out for a couple of months now..and it sorta turned out to be a friends w/ benefit thing..i know it doesn't look good..but i just can't help it..when we're together it's like my worl is perfect..sounds like a fairy tale...anyway..despite what we have shared we don't talk of how we feel about each other..i don't know..why..maybe because i am scared to know that he still likes his ex girlfriend...