Seems like I'm really back to blogging here. :) Wasn't able to attend Sunday mass because I spent the entire day at the office. I'm workin' on 3 cases now. One of them is to be shot this week. It's an out-of- town shoot and I gotta pray hard for this to drive possible hustles away.
Before I went to work, that was 2pm I guess, I had a lil argument or should i say debate with a friend (FUNTER66-he used to be so active here, especially during the motoalert days) about commitments. I couldn't remember how we arrived at that topic but we started to talk about it yesterday on YM and today through text. The conversation ended in my "blah" plus smiley reply. I dont wanna talk about love here because it'll only make me wanna throw up. LOLZ! But as far as I'm concerned, i would never fool around in my relationships, be it romantic or platonic. Never again! Haha! I believe that the main purpose of realationships is to teach us to be more responsible. Whenever we build a relationship with others, a responsibility comes along with it. I don't have anything against those who don't want responsibilities and obligations. But whether we admit it or not, they are part of our daily life. Hmmm... What the hell! I should stop now before i finally get carried away here. So many thoughts rushing through my head.
YM is banned here at the office and i want to thank my officemate Albert for introducing IMO to me. I've been using this for a couple of weeks now. I just hope that the nosy ICT department would not trace it or else, they'll block it and my happy days will be over. Anyway, i happened to catch up my childhood friend, Charibel on YM. She told me that she's getting married soon. Wow! My friends are getting marreid one by one. Then she asked me, "what about u? when will u get married?". I replied a lot of "bwahahahahahahas" to her. How would getting married cross my mind if the oil price hike is never-ending and the price of prime commodities gets higher every week? I said i just want to enjoy life and my being single. Sure, i'll settle down, but not now. She got my point, but she gave me a serious but funny reply: "Kelan ka pa mag-aasawa? Kapag hindi na mabili ang bigas dahil sa taas ng presyo?". Aw! She has a point there. It's impossible that the price of commodities will roll back. Sad to say, but the prices will continue to increase. Say, i'll get married 4 years from now. If one kilo of rice costs 35 pesos now, by 2012 it'll be 40 something. Meaning, life would be more difficult, and it will be hard to raise kids. Does it mean i should get married now? LOLZ!
Currently listening to: Bust it Baby-Plies feat. Neyo
Stolen from: http://31wpm.wordpress.com/. (These pics were used to describe college life and thsi time, i used them to describe my life at work...)
This was me when i got hired...
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and after the first week at work...
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the second week...
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this is me when im able to produce a story early...
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My childhood bestfriend's back from Dubai. I'm so excited to see her. Indeed, friends will always be friends no matter how long they've been apart. It has been 12 years since we last saw each other, no letters, no emails, no calls, no texts, no communication at all. Through one of our childhood friends, she was able to get my number and when she called me up a couple of hours ago, tears rolled down my cheeks. I thought she has forgotten everything about me. I couldn't help but to shed tears of joy especially when I heard her say, "best, i thought nakalimutan mo na ako!". I'm just so happy to know that she has not forgotten that i am her bestfriend though it has been 12 years of not talking to and seeing each other. She told me that she just broke up with her boyfriend and she's kinda in pain now but when she heard my voice, the pain miraculously flew out of the window. How sweeeeeeeettttt!!!! Life is so damn complicated, but when i think of my best friends--those crazy people who are not related to me by blood but really love me, i realize how blessed i am. Smiles.... :)
I'm workin' for a TV network but watching television is really isn't my thing. I'm proud of my show, i'm proud of my network but i dont get to watch its shows--all because i'm not a TV person. I can live my whole life through without it. But today, it's a miracle that my eyes got glued on the tv set. I saw commercials featuring politicians, those ones who will obviously run for the 2010 elections. My friend told me that those ads are being shown for a couple of months already. Geez! I just find it annoying because it's two years away from the next presidential election and yet, they are starting to be visible in the eyes of the state. Yeah, maybe it's none of my business but it really pisses me off. It's so evident that they're telling people to vote for them. I just hope that the money used for those public service ads, (of PAG-IBIG in particular) is not from the government's funds. But i doubt it. LOLZ! Where do the government's funds come from? From the people, and who are the people? It's US! Imagine, nakaka-pangampanya sila ng libre????? Tskkk.
Ok.. stop... enough of that crap. This is not actually the topic that i'd like to write about.
Getting out of my shell is my biggest struggle now. I want to say bye-bye to my comfort zone. I've been so afraid to leave the things and places i got used to. Whew!!! Goodbyes suck, you know and the thought of leaving something and someone so dear to me makes me cry a river of tears. It's just so hard to depart from the people you have learned to love and from the things you always do. Now, i'm somewhere in the middle of staying and leaving. I'm afraid because it's really dangerous to step out of your door, especially when you don't know what's waiting for you outside. Will i survive in the world which nature is way, way different from where i am now? I learn easily, i can adapt to anything without sweating but what if when i get out of here, i screw up? Honestly, i'm scared. That's why i can't make up my mind. But the desire to do the thing that I'm afraid of is still here. I crave for the new world, but i'm scared. I'm scared of the pain that i'll go through when i leave and the risks along my way.
Hey! It's me again, posting an entry after some jurassic years. Dolzen (JETZEN22) and I went out last Saturday. After watching WANTED at Trinoma, we went straight to Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf at Tomas Morato. We stayed there till the break of dawn (from 1am i guess until 4am). It was just weird because we both live in Metro Manila and her office is just one MRT ride from mine and yet, that was the first time we saw each other after two years.Look at that! Hahah! Oh well our chit-chats over hot mocha and hot vanilla latte revolved around one person (I guess Paulvincent knows who). The person who brought me to motoalert, the person whom I owe one of the wonderful friendships i have--- my friendship with dolzen. Because of this person, dolzen and I became not just friends but bestfriends. Making friends online isn't my thing and i never thought that virtual friends can be "real" friends in "real" life. We talk a lot via text and chat and became super friends. I have proven the friendship is real during the MOBBED EB two years ago. Aw. Amazing! That one person, broke my heart so badly and yet, I can't afford to utterly hate him because in return I got one great friend. If not because of him, maybe there'd be no jetzen or dolzen in my life now. We rarely see and text each other, yet the friendship is so alive. Whatta nice thouhgt! :) I guess during those times, dolzen and I were both heartbroken (am i right mare?) Geez! There was so much drama then and the tears, the pains, the wounds caused by LOVE were just so much to take. Hhaha. I can vividly rmemeber all the things i said to her and the crazy confessions, haha! Deymn! How come that i eaisly confided my secrets to her (haha, secrets!) even if i didn't know her yet that time. Smile-smile-smile. I was so damn crazy then. Haha. I wonder how dolzen took all the dramas and heavy feelings i have unleashed then. :) Salamat mare sa pagiging isang tunay na kaibigan. :) I promise, that's the first and the last time that we're gonna hang out till the break of dawn. Heheh. We will hang out until evening of the next day. LOLZ!
HOW
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