hmmm. this is the kind of job where you have no such thing as weekend or holiday. u work on Saturdays and Sundays and just preoccupyingly forget that ppl are supposed to take those days off. hmmm. you also work on big holidays either months before or on the spot. thus, you'd either lose the feeling for the actual holiday or don't even have that holiday.
hmmm. sounds pretty fine for someone who doesn't like holidays and is a mess with time scheduling like me .lol.
[dude] i'm learning to look on the bright side of everything possible!
Read a few lines on Utt's blog. And the word that got stuck in mind was CHECKLIST. Horrifyingly, another year is about to end. Opened my notebook, checked through the goals of 2007. What to say about the results? Marked done for 4 out of 6 study goals, 2 out of 4 work goals, none of the extras [gesh!!!], nearly 3 out of 5 read goals.
This is a year of brand new experiences. Some were inactive for long and this year was just the last straw. Some were planned for long and accidentally came true this year. Some were never thought of not in a million year. But the thing I found most amazing is, in 1 year I've become much more mature. Never have I thought I could actually stand up for my viewpoint the way I did this year. Never have I thought I could pacify others when I was not any better myself. Never have I thought I would bare such thoughts for my nation. In brief, never have I thought I would be me of this year. Someone told me I'm not the carefree girl I was a year ago. Well, I'll take that as a compliment anyways.
Will again come up with another checklist. I don't know what awaits me. Some are wearily predictable. Others are just sheer hopes and wishes...
What I need to bare in mind shall be: A massage won't help a back-ache. It is the medicine that does the job! I will lessen the massages I take and reluctantly take the medicine. Who knows, reluctance may turn to a hobby.
先週の日曜日、三きゆうをうけました。むずかしかっただ。せべるかうかるか、わからない。三きゅうは私の一番のステプ。たくさんステプがまだしません。。。心配するから。。。合格するかしないか？
たくさんがほうしいだ。がんばるよ！
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let's set some priorities here:1. master
2. work (AC n' MTV, no more)
3. stupid freakin lame coll.
n' that's all.
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problem left unsolved: things you thought you have forgiven and forgotten came back to haunt you. Fortunately, only the mind is in function right now.
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question: If you could go somewhere right now, where would it be?
answer: to the ocean. but first, let me transit in Saigon.lol.
either i'm too old for that stuff or i've truly run dry of cheesiness!
MTV exit?
long way to go.
it's hard to seek for privacy these days. Specially when you've got a hi-tech Mom who wants to keep full track of every single move of her 20 year old daughter. why can't parents just learn to accept the fact that their child is no longer a child! even if you want to hold on to them forever, you will eventually have to let them go! having parents who care about you is good. but if caring includes peeking and invading into your private sector, it is pretty agitating i must say. *sigh*
Ok. Back to the brain struggle. What is it that I really should be doing? Looking at the top right corner of the webpage, i wonder till when will there be an MTV asia with a column marked Vietnam on it? then arouse in the veins a combination of envy, frustration, wonder, eagerness and though vague, a plan also... Is there anything I can do? Right then, came flashbacks of the things i was told: "There's nothing like a 'prize you must endure', it's your choice, so chose the roads that are less bumpy!". Should I? Throw away what I really would want to do for a life of mediocrity? What's so bad about mediocrity anyway? Haven't I always considered myself a person of pure nothingness!? *rollies* Don't know! Or maybe, I am myopic! Thinking I've found the best gown when I haven't tried on any other gowns available in store. I mean, need to spread the wings, touch some other aspects of life!!! On second thought, if I switch from one thing to another, till when will I be so sure I've finally met the right choice? Confusing... Anyhow, it's too soon to come up with a final decision. Or is it not? *rollies*
Can an ordinary life of mundaneness satisfy a being of total mediocrity?
there's a new show coming on V6. A dance show. Gesh! How much I love dancing and how much I loved the spirit of the show, love the whole concept!!! Well, a new breeze to the whole chanel. Hopefully, things will be brighter n' brighter...
As for me and my own show? Things have never been smooth and easy... But hey, just look at the bright side... I get to learn so much and work with understanding and astute ppl...
Leave behind all those agitations and dejections and depletions...
though no longer with clear mind of what I'm doing, again, let me be in the right direction...
moody, oh moody me *rollies*
today is quite a nice Saturday. a busy one but it was ok... polishing the streets with my own face, contributing to the government's budget by buying gas frequently, droping my limited savings into cafes, using all the neurons in my head to squizz out something interesting... yes, a saturday...
just so... i'll forget about the rest, or at least, i'm trying to burry the thoughts of nostalgia, of trepidations, of worries...
but i'm lucky... my family's still here, and somehow, there's a feeling of being cherished somewhere...
live? geez, that's gonna be one big mouthful *rollies* dunno how things would turn out *rollies* try, that's it! :D
OK. So no premeire for Shrek the third. Instead, will be preparing something for Bourne. That's better. Don' know why, but Shrek isn't at all inspirational(!)
Errr, I had to put aside all the work my friend has put into the preps for Shrek. Anyhow, still I believe have made the right decision. Though was a last minute decision plus, made me still feel bit remourseful *rollies*
About this job. Ppl keep wondering why on earth could we keep our enthusiasm for a no $$$ job for such a long time. I doubt ourselves at times too. But oh well, twas the start of alot of things: friendship, media activities, social bonds,... Truly, lots lots of things were refreshed then...
OK. will do Bourne. For sure. No more hesitation or procrastination!!!
GO!