i wish i c0uLd LET g0 thEsE fEArs immEdiAtELY. t0 f0rgEt y0u. t0 st0p thinking 0f y0u. t0 st0p wAndEring Ar0und. i wAnt t0 L0vE A nEw. t0 find s0mE0nE bEttEr. thE 0nE wh0's g0nnA sEE right thr0ugh mE. EvEry Em0ti0n. EvErY pAin. i wish i c0uLd hidE this AngEr, hAtrEd & bittErnEss. but in LifE.. in mY LifE, i c0uLdn't just LET mYsELf stArE AT bEAutY, & hidE in hYp0crAcY thE pAin And swELLing sidE 0f mE.

S0mEtimEs i find mYsELF AL0nE. ThErE ArE s0mE pE0pLE cALLing mY nAmE. i just c0uLdn't L00k bAck And sAy yEs. it tAkEs timE t0 hEAL. And up t0 n0w, i stiLL hAvEn't pickEd up thE piEcEs. i'm stiLL br0kE. i'm stiLL wEAk. And i cAn't gEt bAck t0 thE nEEdY. c0z i mYsELf is A nEEdY. =(

m0vE 0n. m0vin 0n. hELp mE mAkE it thr0ugh thE rAin. im s0 scArEd.
=((

i wAnt him t0 think thAt i'm str0ng. --but i cAn't.
i wAnt him t0 rEALizE hE L0st mE & his inc0mpLEtE.
i wAnt him t0 think 0f mE thE wAY i'm thinking 0f him.
i wAnt him t0 fEEL 0bsEssEd LikE i wAs with him bEf0rE.
i wAnt him t0 w0ndEr whY i chAngEd. --but w0uLd hE cArE?
i wAnt him t0 cArE. --thE wAY i sEcrEtLY fEEL.

nAkAkA pAg0d di bA?

kApAg pinipiLit ng mAhAL m0 nA mAgkAibA kAu?
pALAgi niyA sinAsAbi sAu nA mAyAmAn kA, mAhirAp Ak0.
di k0 kAyAng ibigAy Ang mgA hinihingi m0.

bAkit kEA di niLA mAintindihAn nA hindi nAmAn Yun Ang hinihingi m0 sA kAniLA? nA hindi tALAgA Yun Yung gust0 m0. nA hindi nAmAn imp0rtAntE kung An0 Ang kAYA At hindi niYA kAYAng ibigAY? E hindi pA nAmAn kAy0 mAg-AAsAwA, E.. bAkit bA gAnun?

tw0 wEEks & 0nE dAy. 15 dAys t0 bE ExAct. And summEr is 0vEr. wuh00! I cAn't wAit f0r sch00L t0 stArt. whiLE m0st pE0pLE ArE hAving thEir bEst h0Ld f0r summEr. I, -0n thE 0thEr hAnd- wAnts t0 End mY supEr b0ring summEr.

EvErY timE sch00L stArts, i fEEL LikE LifE is rEAL. i cAn d0 whAtEvEr i wAnt. G0 t0 pLAcEs i wAnnA g0, And n0t just stAy h0mE. And n0w, i 0nLy hAvE 3 dAys pEr wEEk t0 sAv0r. but i guEss i'm g0nnA bE busy f0r my subjEcts ArE vEry intErEsting. =D

i Am ALs0 L00king f0rwArd t0 thE 0rgAnizAti0ns thAt is wAiting f0r mE. i rEALLY wAnt t0 bE busy. c0z i d0n't wAnt t0 think Ab0ut s0mE stuffs thAt c0uLd mAkE my hEArt brEAk. i wAnt t0 bE frEE. FrEE fr0m EvErything thAt hAd hAppEnEd within this pAst m0nths.

hAiis.. supEr sAd. pEr0 0k LAng. =D

hAiss. supEr n0sE bLEEd nA tALAgA. sigur0 nAmAn it's 0k t0 spEAk my nAtivE LAnguAgE. hmmm.. kAkApAg0d tALAgA mAg-EngLish. supEr n0sE bLEEd. wELL f0r thE pics.. hindi k0 tALAgA ugALi nA mAg LAgAy At mAg updAtE. kAsi EwAn k0. di tALAgA Ak0 ph0t0gEnic E. right n0w, i'm ListEning t0 "0nLY rEminds mE 0f y0u" by MakE Y0ur mAmA pr0ud--c0mm0nLy kn0wn As M.Y.M.P. wELL, it's n0t my supEr fAv0ritE but i LikE it. hEhE. supEr ExcitEd nA 'k0 pumAs0k. fEELing k0 kAsi mAdAming nAg AAntAy sA'king 0pp0rtunitiEs pArA mAging busY uLi. EwAn k0. Ang LAkAs din kAsi ng intuiti0n k0 nA bAkA mAKiLALA k0 nA yung nExt L0vE intErEst k0. 8-> EwAn. di Ak0 surE kung yun tALAgA nArArAmdAmAn k0 0r dAhiL yun Ang gust0 k0ng mAnyAri. wALA kAsi Ak0ng mAkitAng dEsErving ngAung summEr. c0mE whAt mAy. di nAmAn Ak0 nAgmAmAdALi, E. AtsAkA sigur0 ExcitEd And mEj0 dEspErAtE LAng Ak0, pEr0 kAyA k0 pA nAmAn sigur0 k0ntr0Lin sAriLi k0. i wish i'LL mEEt my princE At thE right timE. s0 thAt i w0n't bE hurt Anym0rE.

dAng! it's s0o0o0 rAiny hErE in Antip0L0. s0 c0Ld. And i cAn hEAr buLLfr0gs mimicking ALrEAdy. wELL, it's 0nE hELLuvA dAY! wE stArtEd 0ur dAy wAtching tELEvisi0n --miss univErsE sh0wing 0ff thEir night g0wns.-- It's just A LittLE disApp0inting f0r us, c0z ms. PhiLippinEs didn't mAkE it EvEn 0n thE t0p 15. but As A c0ns0LAti0n, shE w0n ms. ph0t0gEnic instEAd. sAd. :(( but it's 0k. i find ms. JApAn rEsEmbLing my gurLEt's (bEstfriEnd's) AssEts. And i'm surprisEd thAt shE w0n thE miss UnivErsE titLE. I Als0 find miss k0rEA bEAutifuL but shE just w0n 3rd runnEr up. :(

bAck t0 thE hEctic dAy. wELL. it wAs ALrEAdy pAst 3 in thE AftErn00n, whEn wE LEft thE h0usE. wE wEnt t0 Q-pLAzA nEAr stA. LuciA mALL. wE (mE, pApA & mAmA) t00k s0mE picturEs --i d0n't think i'LL pLAcE it hErE.-- 'c0z it is 0nE 0f thE rEquirEmEnts 0n thE rEgi0nAL triAL c0urt. wE wiLL bE hAving A triAL f0r my LEgAL Ad0pti0n. wELL.. it's A diffErEnt st0ry. i might writE it AftEr thE EvEnt. wELL. LEt's wAit f0r thrEE m0rE nights. 0k? ^^ s0 AftEr thE picturE tAking, wE wEnt t0 NAti0nAL b00kst0rE t0 buy my sistEr's sch00L mAtEriALs. wELL, At thE End 0f thE dAy, i ALs0 b0ught s0mE sch00L mAtEriALs f0r mY upc0ming cLAssEs.
And AftEr buying thE mAtEriALs.. wE wEnt t0 tr0picAL hut t0 EAt. hmmm.. i'm stuffEd with f00d. =)) thEn. AftEr s0mE timE, i find mysELf sitting 0n A chAir with A chEwEd bubbLEgum 0n it. Awtz.. it's s0o0o n0t my dAy. G00d thing i br0ught my b0dy bAg, And i wAs AbLE t0 c0vEr my pAnts with it.

And f0r thE LAst dEstinAti0n, wE wEnt t0 thE pEt sh0p. wE b0ught s0mE fLAkEs
phEw! supEr n0sE bLEEd. if y0u find s0mE wr0ng grAmmAr. f0rgivE mE. i'm kindA tirEd. i fEEL h0t As in i think i'm gEtting sick. mAybE bEcAusE 0f thE wEAthEr. i wish i'LL hAvE A g00d night sLEEp.. hAhAhA! >:)0r mAybE bEcAusE i'm trying t00 hArd t0 spEAk EngLish. :((

thAnky0u f0r rEAding my 2nd EntrY..

wELL.. hi. First 0f ALL i w0uLd LikE t0 intr0ducE mysELf i Am FrAnchEscA mAriE. mY friEnds cALL mE mikAi, chEscA, mAriE, AycAh, AycE, ikAi, FrAnchEscA, chEscA, AmEriE & QiEchA. i Am A fiLipin0 citizEn. i Am 18 y/o. A cAth0Lic. A 3rd yEAr c0LLEgE studEnt 0f cEntr0 Esc0LAr univErsity-- mEndi0LA, mAniLA (PhiLippinEs). i Am tAking up AB mAss c0mmunicAti0ns mAj0r in j0urnALism. As f0r my pErs0nALity.. i Am A crEAtivE, rEsiLiEnt, simpLE, 0ptimistic, tActLEss, AL0nE, And wEird crEAturE. hEhE.


i L0vE writing. --s00n, i wAnt t0 hAvE my 0wn b00k LAunching 'c0z i AspirE t0 bE A g00d writEr s0mEdAy > A n0vEList mAybE 0r A scriptwritEr hErE in thE phiLippinEs i wAnt t0 g0 t0 diffErEnt c0untriEs s0 thAt i c0uLd writE thE bEAuty 0f LifE. i bELiEvE thAt LifE must bE trEAsurEd And Enj0yEd.

i L0vE music As music L0vEs mE. c0z it's A diffErEnt LAnguAgE thAt pE0pLE jivE in A cErtAin wAy. music mAkEs my w0rLd g0 r0und. it's my sALvAti0n And my f0rtrEss whEn i wish t0 bE numb. music mAkEs rEALitiEs int0 drEAms. it cAptivAtEs my m00ds. i cAn't dEny my fEELings whEn I hEAr s0ngs Ab0ut my hiddEn Em0ti0ns.

i L0vE c0mp0sing s0ngs And pLAying thE guitAr. I ALs0 L0vE singing, c0z it's 0nE 0f G0d's gift t0 mE. A tALEnt.

writing --0n thE 0thEr hAnd, is 0nE 0f my m0st trEASurEd sEcrEts. A sEcrET 0pEn t0 EvEry0nE wh0 cArEs Ab0ut my th0ughts. This mAkEs mE brEAthE in And brEAthE 0ut my 0pini0ns. my drEAms. my AspirAti0ns. 0r whAtEvEr things thAt's mAkin mE unc0mf0rtAbLE.

hAiis. n0sE bLEEd nA 't0. kAyA pA bA? hirAp mAg-EngLish. Amps. bAkA kAsi di mAintindihAn ng f0rEign pE0pLE. wELL, sAnA mEi mAg Add.. =D

if y0u wAnt t0 gEt t0 kn0w mE. y0u must mEssAgE mE Ayt? I d0n't cArE whAtEvEr rAcE 0r c0untry y0u'rE fr0m. I wAnt t0 mAkE friEnds, c0z this is my first timE t0 bE A pArt 0f mtv AsiA's c00L sitEs. but 0f c0ursE, i wiLL dEFinitELy ApprEciAtE fiLipin0 friEnds t0 bE A pArt 0f my mtv w0rLd.


music L0vErs unitE. *(^-^)*