brent's (peices of maiyah's life)
You are the last girl i'd shed my tears with. And the first and the last my heart would fall for. Take good care of yourself. Goodnight 15:13 11/10/2006 (received 06:57 pm)
You know why i don't want to engage with this kind of conversation with you? Because all i can do isa say that i'm here and always be there if you need me. Which is true however i'm not provint it. I have no. I bleed inside everytime that happens. I may appear to be content when i'm with the company of other people but the truth is i'm not. I feel Incomplete. Maiyah you deserve to be happy. and i believe iam depriving you of that happiness you're suppose to have. I was born to feel hate and pain and you are not. I don't want to share this disease with and let you tast e the agony i feel. I constantly say that you are the best thing that could happen to a boy like me. And i am so DAMN thankful you came. Since then i never stopped thinking about you. This may sound blasphemous but it is true the moment i met you i reestablish my connection with the higher power once again after years of not praying. I did. And sisnce then i have been doing it. I need someone to look out for you. I never retret my decision of speaking with him again...
14:35:29 11/05/2006
submitted my 2 weeks notice this week....
having second thoughts.. wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh WHY? WHY? WHY?
Haaaaaaaaaaay..................
anyone want to take my post here???
wahahaha.. no ones here.. hmm its pretty quiet.. Work work work?
^_^
why do you always have to do this to me ryan... why..
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been a while since we talked on the phone..
WHY DO YOU HAVE TO RUIN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
quarrel series 2.10
Nakakairita ka! If you want to pursue that ridiculous stunt of yours SIGE!! BAHALA KA!!!!! Why do you ALWAYS have to bring that idea up everytime tayo magkausap??? Kung sasaya ka ba sa gagawin mong yun BAHALA KA! Kung gusto mo MAGPAKAHIRAP sa SARILI MO! Hindi na yun nakakatawa alam mo un??? Kung gusto mo din uminom.. HALA SIGE!! MAGPAKALANGO KA!
Bahala ka na..
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you know how much it hurst when you do this.........
Brent,
I miss our fights... I miss "me" trying to call you off drinking..
I miss your monologues…
I miss your sweet teases…
I miss the feeling of wanting to check on you and wanting to take care of you..
I miss receiving SMS on my other line...
I miss anticipating for the day you'd keep your promises
I miss calls that wake me up in the wee hours of the morning...
I’m tired of you saying goodbye.. I admit the first time I really cried.. and on the second time.. I did still.. but I think there always comes a point where I find myself wanting to be with you. and in that wanting I find "me" hurting inside.. I’ve stayed away and said goodbye a couple of time but after a while.. I find myself missing you.. retracing my steps back to you..
Every goodbye. take care and thank you makes my heart ache. it makes me cry in a way that every drop reminds me of how much I want you and how much I need you..
you opened this, FILL IT OUT ! Learn 50 things
about your friends, and let them learn 50 things
about you!
1. How tall are you barefoot?
5' 5'
2. Have you ever been unfaithful in a
relationship?
hmm what kind of relationship ;p
3. Do you own a gun?
gun.. i dont own any at the moment but its a good idea.. ill get one.
4. If you had a mental disorder, what would it be?
if i had? i still have it : selective memory loss
5. How many letters are in your crush's name?
i dont like to count..
6. What do you think of hot dogs?
hot dogs
7. What's your favorite Christmas song?
christmas song. christmas song.. thun thun thun thunun....
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
M I L K
9. Do you do push-ups?
ahahahahah me? what do you think??
10. Have you ever done ecstasy?
na ah
11. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
boy and girl Friends.
12. Do you like the rain?
i used to hate the rain coz it reminds me of someone.. i like the rain
13.Do you own a knife?
BALISONG>> hahahaha gboy gave it to me as a gift
14. What do you smell like?
smell me! ahahah
15. Do you have A.D.D.?
yes....
16. Full initials?
MDRL
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment.
1. plane
2. ticket
3. clear open space
18. Name the last 3 things you have bought today.
1. bpermit
2. sampaloc
3. ticket
19. Name five drinks you regularly drink, in order
most to least.
milk, soda, lemon juice, coffee, tea, water (i tell you takin these in this order is bad...)
20. What time did you wake up today?
3:30 am
21. Can you spell?
S P E L L
22. Current worry?
t i m e
23. Current hate?
still t i m e
didn't show up for work today coz its my parents' wedding aniversary... i imagined this day to be flowing with champagne bubbles.. i had it all wrong. wahhaahahahh
i dont know if its my latent desire to actually escape from the stress im gettin at the office or its just my craving for home cook meals.. eitherway.. this day turn out to be a lousy one..
sigh*
got me thinking again of whether or not i should continue working... i need to take a break... im feeling the need to go somwhere far....
any suggestions?