last night. i called him. n he hanged up on me. from that moment. i knew. therell b nothing between us. EVER! even if i keep on trying. it's impossible. he's just playing with my heart. i felt stupid. knowing that i had an intention to breakup with ca to be with him. thank god i didnt do it. THANK GOD!
today. ca came. we talked. i cried. i confessed about him. ca. was silent. i knew from that moment. ca will never blieve a word i say. ive betrayed ca's trust. and now. itll not be easy to regain it. it was very tense. when we were waiting for the cab. both of us. in the midst of crying. n yeah. we cried afterward. ca. in the cab. me. in front of the screen. watching a vid ca made for me. for our annyversary. ca cudnt blieve i kept a scret for so long. ive committed an omission to ca. it was sad. i hurt myself by hurting ca. im sorry. but ca warned me. if i ever did the same thing again. trying to take advntage of ca's kindness. there'll be no more second chance. this is the final cut for me. im the villain. i shud be punished. i ll acept the consequences.
for now. i hope evrything will be back to normal. well, i wish.
so many crazy peeps out there. earlier i went to ofee's house. well, reluctantly. but 2moro is her bday so, juz wanna make her feel happy. lgpn tade ape2 nk buat kt umah. hmm. met up with yana, shaq. theyve all grown up. haha. lepak2 at food court. nuar dtg. hehehe. ofee suke la tu. her boyfriend ade bersame. n then after awhile, dtgla dewi n aah. dewi!!! hairfree skrg. where's her headscarf? i dunno. tu ok lg. tp her mouth!!! urgh!! keep talking crap. using obscene words. YUCKS! EUWWW! hate it. bought a cd as a valentine gift 4 ca. hehehe. besh!! n then, whent to cybercafe. after tt, ca called. die dtg. sbb ikut ayah g hotel selesa. yeay!!! g bowling with aah n ofee. tp xmen pn. njoying my time with ca. lps bowling g kbox. urghhh. cm jmban. aah n ofee kareoke. seb bek, due2 hv nice voice. haha. bole la thn. ngeh3. g uma ofee. BEST!!! ate lunch, then, after 2hours, ca went back to d hotel. tumpang mak aah, mrs salmah saadiah. weeee~ beshnye. sbb dpt spend time ngn ca. n friends. well, dewi was such a pain. dun lyk d way she is ryt now. very2 rude. n harsh. impolite. hmm. aah, she's still d same. we cn still talk n laugh with each other. unlike dewi. fortunately ade ca. brighten my day. . .
everything's cool now. que sera, sera. ok. hmm. i miss ca so much!!
frustration n dissapointment in me. how to heal my broken heart? i hv bestfriends. from long ago. dey went to uni. n dey've changed since. in a bad way. aku ksian kt ofee. die xslh. tp knape reaction diorg mst as if ofee slh?? ofee x amek sape2 punye hak pn. aah tgo about pic me, ofee, jana, azie, nana -combined. mmg tu mmbe bru. bukn stakat mmbe tp bestfriend bru. yg aku syg sgt!!!! SGT! rs berat hati nk tros consider diorg as bestfriend aku. sbb diorg xsupport ofee. pdhl ni kn utk die punye happiness! y?? apsl le jd cmni? apsl nk ungkit cerite lme. pdhl dulu diorg sndiri xsuke cuen ungkit cerite lme tym confess about ayong n ham. urgh! diorg mmg kjam! is dis how bestfriendsforever shud treat each other? y can't dey'll just b happy 4 ofee? i really2 don't feel like being bestfriends with them anymore. i'm sorry, but dey r not d best of friends. i thot dey were d one i can count on. clearly, i was wrong!
SISTERS FOR LIFE!
been friends with ofee since 2001. with azie since 2006. jana, 2002. nana, 2007. although (4 azie n nana) i've only been friends 4 awhile, i love all of 'em to bits! dey're my rock. 4 now, i just love my sisters. my supporters. my shoulders to cry on. i noe dey'll owes b there 4 me!
owh. we had so much fun. thanx to ofee. went to azie's house 4 d 1st tym. met ca at cs. and nuar too. buat sesuatu yg ktowg xpna buat. lepak2 kt dpn elevator. twice. dok dlm phone booth. me, ca, syura_yam, azie. packed gle. men amek2 gmba. baring2 kt eyca. syoknye. i love my friends. i love ca. i love them all.
fortunately, d smile on his face can mke me forget all my worries. at least 4 a while. i love him. my pink kid :))
