i am totally into this one guy..

i like him..

he's so different and has a few characteristic of my dream guy..

but sometimes, i juz couldn't trust him..

i tried to believe in him and mayb have a lil faith on him bt i jz cant..

his way makes it hard 4 me to do so..

he gave me hope, and then he took it back..

that is really makes me sad..

he's cute. adorable and so smart...bt sometimes he looks like a freako..anyway, that's fine..

but he'd never noticed me i guess...coz it always me who need to start a conversation 1st..

if i didn't start it, there will be no conversation..

mayb it's bcoz im a geek high!! am i look like a geek?

i really like him ...i really do.. ohh,, when will he notice me?!

ok..hmm..where should i start huh?
hmm..i juz wanna say that i'm kinda shocked when d 1st time i saw steven strait in
10 000 b.c! he looks terrible in that movie! his hair is very messy! awful! but anyway, this movie will totally break out his fame! trust me! he'll be more famous! hmm..he starred with camilla in that movie and i am definitely sure there will be a kiss scene in it and for sure that thing kinda make me jealous..it's not that i care! well..hmm..ok! i do care! ofcoz i care whenever seeing someone that we like kissing with other person! hmm..but i think maybe i am not jealous that much bcoz i juz like steven starait in sky high as warren peace..i dont like him the way he is..i juz like warren peace not steven strait..but still im kinda jealous about it..if i said that im not jealous, that is totally a lie! hahah..

alex evans..who is he? he's so famous but i don't even know who is he?! i was browsing on youtube and suddenly i saw lots of videos about him..i started to wonder, who the hell is this guy?!my curiousity has became bigger and bigger so i searched him in google and i found out that he has his own website that features everything about him! he has his own clothingline, he does his own photoshoots and even music!i just can't believe that! he's just a normal boy but he's doing so much things at such a young age..and guess what..?! he's still 17 years old! how cool is that.. he's actually was creeping me out at first because he looks like a strange boy..but then i realize that he's not that creepy..he's just like everyone else..normal! besides, by looking at his pictures, girls will totally in love with him because he's just so cute and charming that i can't even resist! seriously!! but i try not to fall in love with him lol!! ;)xoxo..he gets tonnes of friend requests on myspace everyday! hmm..how does he handles that?! talk about his music..he makes music with his friend, mark crisman. i recommended that people should try to listen to their music because it's kinda different and groovy! they are just put up their new recorded song called 'bleeding love' which is populared by leona lewis. they make that song to their own version and i like it so much! i don't know about others but for me, 'bleeding love' mark and alex's version is quite good! they also have other songs in their myspace page and still...i love it! not to mention, they're not celebrities neither do under any record labels..they're just making music for fun because they loved it! ;)xoxo by looking at mark and alex, it shows that not only adults can do such things..teens also can! they have their own visions and maybe someday i could be like them.lol! ;)

why i became like this hah? why i became crazy like this? i think this is the first time i'm crazy for someone like this! i used to like a boy named A.. but not as deep as this guy. JOE, he's the guy who always be in my heart.. i don't know why i like him.. he's cute but not too handsome like other guys.. i don't really know whether he's kind or not.. but i do know one thing about him. he's a silent guy..really quiet.. i've never seen such a silent guy like him..i never met him.. not even once. for all these times, i only watched him on tv and the internet. yeah, joe is a musician. it's not easy to meet him.everytime i watch tv, he still quiet..it is always his friends who talk alot. so hard to see him talk. although he's too quiet, i still like him..

my friends and my family always said.."mira, why do you like joe? he's not even handsome. the others are more handsome than him.." i just don't get it! why people always want to say like that?? if people always want to like the pretty and hansome people, there's no way i could have friends because i'm not pretty and i know where i stand..but, on second thought..i don't think i'm compatible with joe because i'm not pretty.. at least joe is cute.. he has many fans. me,..... no one would want me.. besides, there are too many obstacles between me and him.. i don't know him that much.. he doesn't even know whether i'm exist or not..who knows, maybe he already has a girlfriend..my love for him is like forbidden.. i'm a muslim girl and he's not... we're just not meant for each other..

i'm such a pathetic! i fell in love with someone that is impossible for me to get.. sometimes i felt like a psychopath whenever i think of it..i always told myself, "mira, forget joe. he's not for you. enough of him.."
but still, i can't forget him and i don't know why!? perhaps anybody who read my blog will think i'm crazy but that's okay..

i want to meet him! really want to! last month, i won't forget this date..7NOV2007, he and his band came to malaysia for doing a concert here.. i didn't go to the concert because it was held at night and for sure my parents won't let me go..another reason i don't want to go is because the fact that i'm not pretty and i don't want to go there and then humiliates myself infront of him! i don't want him to see his ugly fan..i always staring into spaces and wondering. is it a sin for loving joe??hmm...i want joe to know that someone is really care about him.. sometimes i felt like i want him to read my blog..but if he does read, maybe he will just ignore it and think that i'm somekind of a psycho fanatic!! i feel very bad knowing that he doesn't even know me at all..
my feelings are stupid right?? hmm...i don't know how can i picture this feeling.. it's just too difficult..i always wondering, what if someday i get to meet joe? he likes me or not? will he accept me as his fan? will he treat me good? so many questions in my mind!... i always talk about joe..even my friends are getting bored with it.. maybe you guys are feeling the same way too right?! i'm sorry if my story bugging you guys..it's okay if you guys don't want to read it..

hmm...if you guys boring reading my blog, you can definitely tell me about it..don't worry, i won't bite..hahaha!
i will always support joe in everything he does!! "nothing short from world domination." he always said this..
he is such a good man! he's a walking encyclopedia, a dreamer, a visionary and knows what's right and not.. hope i can be like that one day!!! looks like my blog for today has come to an end..my fingers are exhausted! whenever i'm free..i'll update my blog..well, i don't expect you to read my blog but if u do, thanks a bunch!! k daa...bye..

LOVE JOE GUESE FOREVER!!