to rest
this wretched mind
to sleep
to shut out
the desolate chaos
if not in vain
to subsist
on sheer will
and happy little pills
to hone
the invictus spirit
facing wavering faith
is to overcome
the darkness
that comes before light
at lost for words
i dare borrow...
"My tears dry on their own"
Why is it that we seek our true selves only in the midst of our most trying times? Journals often contain secrets we could share with no one else, burdens we can hardly bear, memories we wish never to forget and memories that we wish to lock in the recesses of our thoughts… but all these just leads back to who we are and what we have made out of our lives.
This is an unfinished story of a girl who has encountered many crossroads in her life and traversed many roads seldom taken. This is the life of someone who has gone thru many alleys and valleys but eventually managed to return back home... over and over again… only to find her true self.
After rediscovering,
Redefining,
And much soul searching…
I'm quite happy.
Finally reconnected,
I am home…
There is comfort
In the wisdom of old souls,
Sages from times long gone.
Surprisingly,
Sense does exist!
Past thinking what others think...
Prioritizing my ideals
With maturity,
Responsibility,
And a huge dose of introspective.
No longer a kid,
I'm devoid of flimsy ideas,
Of inane things that will make me "happy".
Heck, I've got issues!
But I deal with them!
Happiness is as happiness goes...
Another day has gone by
It's a little bit better
I'm a little bit stronger.
Trials will come and go...
Tomorrow will be tomorrow
I will overcome.
too much thoughts all at once,
no point trying to make sense...
not now.
yearning for rest...
silence...
peace...
just get through another day.
sleep will come,
i will be alright...
maybe just not tonight.
maybe tomorrow...
Embarking on a new journey
Not taking any excess luggage
Just me and my thoughts
On who I was, who I am and who I want to be.
Today I’m introspective…
Starting something new
Something big
Something significant
Something that isn’t easy…
Got to be optimistic
Jumpstart this decision into motion…
Can’t afford to look back now
Hold back from running scared...
Maybe someday
When I feel i am strong enough
Today is just today,
As tomorrow is just tomorrow.
I don't wish to reflect
Don't want to go too deep.
Not today...
I'll settle for the moment,
At peace with what is.
No thoughts on now,
Before,
Nor the future.
Today,
It's all just me...
A year older is all.
At lost for words
Not for thought.
My words are heard
By countless, nameless faces
Unknown friends.
Surprisingly...
I am happy, as happiness goes,
As the comfort of my lines
Give momentary light
In the darkest of my days.