Okay, remember Ned?

Forget him. Even as a "fake boyfriend", he sucks big time.

 A few days ago I asked him what day it was and he actually said tuesday with a question mark! Then I asked him to try again. He thought it was my birthday!

 Apart from that when I lost my wallet, it was sweet of him to offer to buy me a new wallet but when someone returned my wallet, he actually said, good, i can save my money then.

...

Bleah.

 So why do I say a twist to this drama?

This sunday I intend to break it off with him. Why? Cos how can you continue a relationship albeit a  farce of a relationship when you are falling for another guy?

Sure, go ahead and call me names you reserve for girls like me who falls in and out of love at the snap of a finger. BUT I'm not one of them! It's weird for me to crush on a guy and then crush on another guy some weeks later! I rarely fall in like much less love so this confusion is like being in a middle of an earthquake. You can't hold on to something because even the ground is unstable. You're being tossed and heaved and you try your damn-est to stay on your feet or else you'll fall and you might get injured from this fall.

So why the change of heart? I wont call it a sudden change of heart cos its been building up to this point for some weeks. And you know what's worse, it just crept up on me and "BOOM!"

Without warning.

With Ned, I knew it was coming and somehow I put a distant between us for self-preservation but for this guy, I had no warning. Let's call him Dan.

We're in the same school, studying different courses and got to know each other through one of the major school clubs. The Student Union. We would hangout at the clubhouse during our break and would sometimes go home together with a bunch of friends. The weird thing is that I saw him as a brother. In fact they call me "Da-Jie" which is eldest sister in chinese.

Okay, so I have not blogged in a long time. Hard when you've already got a blog that's beeen up since aeons ago. Do check it out! http://exit-mortality.blogspot.com/

 Anyways, why I suddenly have come back here to write? Cos well I've got a prob. A love prob. And writing it in my other blog, well its just too close to home cos people surrounding this prob of mine reads my blog and I really do need to let it out!!! I can't just talk to my friends cos well, they'll see through the heart of it. Of who's the guy!

 This is going to be a long story. Read on if you still want to.

 It all started with Ned(not his real name) and our friends back in late May. He kept asking me to be his girlfriend just because well, I don't see him in that light and possibly because he's going into NS( National Service for those who don't know this) and basically calling his mum seems pretty pathetic when he's in camp.

So I did mention more than a few times I need a boyfriend to them. Everyone was unfaced at this outrageousness and illicited no response. Suspicious, I knew something was up cos I had not seen them in a while and they might have concocted up this plot.

I maybe open but this whole issue was uncomfortable for me.

Three weeks on, still not giving up. I softened up to the idea and grudgingly agreed.

Arrangement was quite simple, I'm attached but not attached. Relationship without commitment. I can date around if I want and if I finally found someone, we'd part ways with no hard feelings. A pretty cool arrangements where he sms-es me or call me every night he's in camp?

1st June, we got togrther. He booked in on the 5th if I'm not wrong.

At first I had a blast playing around with my friends who have no idea of the arrangement. One minute telling them I have a boyfriend and the next no. And when I did reveal finally to Sean(not real name), one of my friend, the real thing, ahh! Here's how the conversation went:

Remember my predicament in my last post? Well I did'nt take my friend's advice cos that's just not me.

I sms-ed the guy telling him what I really feel bout him asking way too many questions bout me.

Nicely of course.

And as the title of this blog says, I've got more problems ahead.

Is'nt life exciting?? Cos according to this really popular book in my school library that describes a person's personality born on a specific days(yes all 364 n 1/4 days), which you can't loan(what the heck issit in the library for then??), I'm exciting,freedom-loving...trouble-filled...destructive..sort..of...person...hmmm..

Anyway, what problems?? Well it may sound very trivial..and shallow..lame..but its not!

I have to do 2 freaking game stalls for my church's food and fun fair games which is up in two weeks...or to be exact its next sunday. I've got my stuff, did all the banner myself which was a really messy process cos up to now I'm still trying to de-glitter my room, one game's settled, the other being settled as I write.

So what's my problem you say??

Let me tell you something a little bit more bout myself that the book that I mentioned ealier elaborated bout me. I'm the type who likes a certain way of doing things according to my vision. Anyone who try to tweak whatever I wanted to be done, I basically get annoyed.

Very very annoyed.

But that's only part of the overall problem which is manpower!! I need them! Well I do need a boyfriend, who's rich..but that's not the point here.

I don't have enough people to help man the stalls! All I've got are sec 3 kids under the immersion programme in my youth group snd I'm not even sure if they'll turn up cos well basically they have to participate with or against their will in the programme for three weeks and I'm not sure if they'll turn up.

Oh and did I mention I'm having my preliminary exams now which I have not even prepared for??

I haven't blog awile here. Kinda hard handling 2 blogs at once..

Anyway, got a freaking major problem.

My friend intro me to a guy thru a phone. She has'nt met him yet and now he has my number and trying to get to know me. I don't really feel comfortable and wen i told my friend, he said to tell him to fuck off.

Would love to do that but it's just not nice.

Some help please??

I watched it last night!!! It was so funny most of the time the whole group of us were laughing the loudest in the hall which was mostly empty. Anyway it really is something to watch cos it basically brings the first two films to a crystal clarity. As in why Jack is always running away from a fight, why he looks for weird treasures( the Aztec coins in the first film and the heart in the 2nd chest).. wait for it.. they both have a similarity which is... Living Forever. Yup. Captain Jack Sparrow wants to sail the seven seas for eternity. You see if he stans the heart of Davey Jones, he must cut out his heart to replace it cos the Flying Dutchman must always have a Captain and there is a purpose for the Flying Dutchman, it has to guide souls to Davey Jone's Locker or in this case Will Turner's Locker now.. Yep sadly, OB died in the end to become captain of the Flying Dutchman. And Jack Sparrow, despite his cowardly, drunken outward appearance, is truly noble in sacrificing his chance for sailing the seas for eternity..

(the poem I wrote above was kind of born yesterday when I realised something and I was feeling, well fustrated, worried, you know, the usual cold feeling in the pits of your stomach when something-goes-horribly-wrong-or-will-go-horribly-wrong-and-you-can't-do-anything-about-it thing?