It's been 3 years since i couldn't sleep without having to think of a lot of things, that have continuously bothered me over the span of time. Three years is long, you know, but why can't i get over the pain? why can't i let go of the angst? why can't i stop missing my friends whom i thought would never betray and hurt me? Sometimes I disgust myself of pretending that I've gone through the process of losing and keeping someone i don't really know i still deserve to be with. I guess i haven't really totally accepted the fact that i was a victim-a stupid victim of a crime named LOVE. LOVE...Is it still love? or am i just afraid of the circumstance that one day, if i'd totally lose him, id just sulk, cry out of self-pity and loneliness, thinking that those whom i considered "friends" would just laugh at me for having been a stupid desperate, hopeless romantic, obsessive lover! I have been used being with him for my past 4 years and i can't imagine my life without him... "I wanna go through the missing part... I'm not ready to go to the reconciliation part. It still hurts. It does and i pray that soon, i'll get out of this hell-like paranoia."

The moment i watched adam's 50 first dates, i couldn't help but fall in love with this guy...charm, talent, appeal...that's what adam sandler is all about...=)

i can't wait for sembreak to come. It's almost 4 months since i've been working too hard in school. radio productions, avp's, reaction papers, exams...(aaarghh) i'm tired and sick of all these stuff...i'll try to make use of this break for some relaxation...i plan to go to the beach (puerto galera maybe) with my friends.. i really hope we could all go coz if then, i'd finally be able to step on the sand of galera..hihi...

My day so far has been awesome. our group was rewarded bonus of 10 points for our final grade in Statistics since we had a fun animated movie presentation about Stratified Sampling. hehe...=) It must be teamwork and patience, huh...

This very moment, I'm spending time with my friend Rain, surfing the net and waiting for the clock to tick at 2pm. My Radio Production group will be practicing by then for our talkshow production this coming Friday... Whheeeww... This week has been so stressful! I even finished writing the script 3am this morning since I don't wanna be directing stupidly for the prod. Yes, you read it right. I'm directing...waaaahhh... I actually can feel butterflies in my stomach as early as now. Hope we'll have a blast this Friday...*cross fingers =)