If you met your first love, definitely that's your first kiss.

but if you are not your lover first love shall you not getting the first kiss. Am I right? When the man had his first kiss,but the woman already had handy experience about the kiss,it doesn't meaningful for the man anymore, right? when is the right time for a kiss in a relationship? Of coz a kiss is followed up by holding hand.. hoho.. but how long is considered as acceptable? 2 months? or 1 year relationship? how about for a couple that start real fast, I mean the growth is speedy?

Some people I knew are easily fall in that part 'cause to them it grows the heart to love each other. Yea,maybe it's true. Exactly, there's no right or wrong in love. but shall understand the meaning of love. God is the precious one and He love us first before let us to pass the love to another person.

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can talk, can play, can funky, can enjoy, can be happy.. for the last week coming soon. haha... Im counting the days when this training can end.. Arr.. around 9 days to go. but add extra 2days stay here as ticket cheap last time for the selected date. So miss my loved ones (family). they're closet to me,of coz..

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think back,got few things have to worked out even after fin the training. Aah.. the report have to pass up within 7days. but, din touch single words writing yet. terrible habit i have is doing things at the last minutes. hoho.. Always like this. cannot stick to finish the work earlier..no idea. Maybe I ordy practiced all along ago.

Aa.. afterall, best to think im counting days ahead.. but, waaa.... goin to be in last year start July... hope can graduate and upgrade the pointer at least 3.00. so bad din reach my target yet over 2 years before. God's Will, I will make the best for myself!

Good things to say.. Gonna be permanant ppl at the city. at least better that the old town that i born and grown up, spending my 18years there..

but, some time being the city people shall able to compete with the origin. shall able to more successful. but, better don get involve in bad things, bad attitude that city ppl applied.

im moving but MTV still not moved from my heart. you're the greatest blog i like coz can win prizes and know new blogger. All stand up and Rock You!!

seeing the people that u dislikes but they someone that clse to you.. whats really the feeling is..i really feel mixed up.

want to express hate? but, things don settled.

want to express anger? no used coz the hurt only urself. Yea,that's correct.

i cared as much as I can. but, I do feel im bit over protective. They don need my care, actually. They grown up and get more close to those situation early than myself. I just to be a person hanging there to keep bjsybody with their matter. so the feeling not so good.

just a little updates to the fate of my dog. he no longer friendly to people. my family says that he yesterday and today(23/6) bite a worker that come to our place. therefore a big part believing that mydog bite the neighbour's son.. i don know why he can become wild and weird,lots of stress when im not around. but, i think 'coz the leaving of youngsters(puppies) with to play as before.

i have to close this case. but i don know how to handle my beloved dog. we cannot keep him by side anymore. that's the worst. help me, bloggers! find way for me. thank you!!!

Ridiculous! How ever on the earth still got such person? Blaming other people without thinking with rational which only based on others saying believe 100%.

The case is like this… a woman (a part of the neighborhood) also claiming that her son’s buttock being bite by my dog. But, the point is she listens to what her “house cleaner” claimed. She didn’t really investigate and know either the story is true and reliable or not but directly goes to our house and blaming us! Don’t you think these things weird to hook up? Originally what she claimed is not true as she said my dog bite the puppy till dead not long ago. I know this situation. It’s another dog that we have before it being dumped. I know this story by morning. Then, what surprise me is at night, the woman once again drop at our house and kept repeating the same thing. But this time target is my parents. I sense this woman didn’t feel satisfy with us. At last, she uttered sort of warning.

She said will call to authorities to catch my dog if ever saw him around or outside the house. My parents of coz insist that my dog never bite anyone and only her naughty children always bullied my dog and throw them with stones. So, we didn’t afraid of them. Who they think they are? Trying to force us away from neighborhood? I can’t believe it. My dog has been with me since near end 2006. I know I never trained him to be good dog but he did like me too. He do stay listen whenever I’m at home. Let me bathe him and stand still for me to wipe the wet. So no matter how and what, my whole families strongly believe this story is creation only and bringing up by ridiculous mother aka unreliable evidence.

I don’t believe myself. How could a person become two kind of person in a single day in a period of time and changing into different ppl. I think I am and I do believe someone or some ppl might agree with me. Do you? The situation can be happen this way… whenever im in the office, some ppl will make me laugh and I do feel im kinda a little cheer up and happy. But then when its time to go back, I feel bit sad and down. Maybe coz the changing situation or different environment where ppl look things differently? I did make myself feel good by watching my favorites anime everyday 6 pm and my favourite CSI on Sunday. So I think im not depressed or awkward for what happen.

No one ever want themselves to-be called as person-have-to-lie. I do lie but some lie does it by purpose. Some are accidentally because to cover up either to make things look nice. Etc: you’re looking great with the dress. OR that’s real suit with you. Smtm that’s what I say to my friends (sorry). Some lie is to make myself better. If I ever lie, I do hope some punishment will drop at me. But, I do believe in guiltiness. But, as a close friend said to me,’ you’ve made a decision. So stick to it. If the result it’s good, feel great with it. If the result is out of ur prediction, nothing much u can do”… so, its not regret for making any lie at least u do feel better afterward.

sharing up side down.. who really care?

From the time i steps in at 1.30pm, i feel something bad gonna be happen.the meeting is about ought to be camp motivation. that's suppose will be organized by this weekend. Actually, this camp itself have lots of problem. i can say its non-stop happening. Then, around 1.40pm, co-ordinator in charge for this camp announced to us thet,"there's only two alternative for this camp to be success. Either,proceed the camp with one day one night or postponed the camp to the next semester. Again?? change the date again? why?? I wont grab the mic to say that i put much effort in this camp. but, the way how i put this things look fom the side from my fren that really do a lotThis is not fair and their appreciation should not be repay by this way..

My attitude after this towards camp will no longer stick to the old one. i don care what's the bullshit about commitment, teamwork, trust, effort, good preparation.. thats all they said. i don forsee this could be a success. u can try. but not to me. I say it clear here that I automatically be the pretender. pretend as very co-opeartive person. do as they want me to do. smile as they wish for. the feeling of belonging are lost already, actually.

From the first time i see how rigid this camp are. ppl don perceive it well and see this matter as simple. reject whenever they want. Im really defend to this. why should make this things out if the reality is they cnt do anything at al? i tell u, if they really concern about this matter, they wont say it only without action. give so much bullshit reason is no use at all. Like just know, the voting result for proceed the camp actually most over majority.

but, the co-ordinator influenced them. The mind actually the easiest way cos ppl are live with feeling and emotion. they will perceive what they think is good for all. But, at that time, my mind already stop. whats all the reason he gave means nothing to me. Even such decision has made, i feel nothing,Really. as the feeling for this camp already end.

i like to say that no one exactly understand me. there's always you, urself knowing it. no one have better understanding in this coz' u're grow up in own perception, way of life flow and the way of react. sometime may say they understand you which are fake becoz lying is a way to cover the truth. but load of lying bulk up, it will become hard to accept. truth always not everyone's likelihood.

but sometime i will say, i cant understand myself either. i don know where my mind heading to and feel im belong to nobody. but there's always a way to figure out.

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