heyz! i'm so missing you all here... i wish i have much time to check my blog regularly. i'm hooked on my work schedules oftentimes so i hardly had enough time to at least stop by here... love you qall!!! Ü

damn... i don't even know what to say or write...

hey, fellahs! uhm, nice to be back here. i've been gone for a little like a year. uhm, just chillin'. just partyin'. just trippin'. how's the party goin' around here? uhm, i miss MTV! i miss u,guys! u may check out my friendster page. oh yeah, it's jersey33@skim.com... see u around! Ü

              WhEn NoThinG SeeMs oN thE RiGhT TRaCk aNd thE CoUrsE Of LIfE TeNds tO DiG In THe ToTaL oUtcASt mE CAmE SomEthinG I HaRDLy eVeR FeLt BeFoRE... thE pAsT SqUArE-sHaPeD lIfE I HaD tUrNeD oUt tO Be sOMeThiNg RoUNd---eVErYtHInG FrUiTfUL, EvErYTHIng rElEvAnT, EvERyTHing eXCiTInG, eVErYtHInG MaGiCal, EvERyTHINg eNdLeSS, wHaT Not... i cAn SaY I Am MoRe thAn So HaPPy nOw---rIgHt aFtEr i fOunD soMeOnE WhOm i cAn CaLL MoRe THaN juSt a cHUm, wHoM I CaN cOnSiDeR SomEoNe WhO cAn bAttLe wIth Me aGaINsT THe gIgAnTiC TiDeS Of A GrEAt SeA, WhOm i cAn liVe WiTH To thE lIfE'S fUllEsT...  YeS, sElDom Do WE FInD sOmEoNe wHo cAn UnSeLfIsHlY GiVe PrEcIOuS tImE tO uS... sElDoM Do WE FiNd SomEoNe wHo cAn TreAt uS As SpEcIaL As a rAInBoW To THe THe bILLOwInG cLOuDS. iT wAS OnlY wHeN THiS PeRSoN caME To Me WhEn i LeArNed thAt THerE Is sTill MOrE tO lIFe, thAt iN thE vAsT AnD dIsTaNt sHaDoWS A HaNd wILL tAke yOu To WhERE DrEAmS SeEm bRiLLiAnT, THaT THerE Is sOmEonE WhO loVeS Me aS My mOm DoEs... I Am So cONtENdeD NoW... I Am THaNkFuL BeCaUsE NoW I FoUNd sOmEoNe wHo cAMe WhEn AlMOsT EvERythINg iN Me wAS BrOkEN... THaNKs!

         It iS ReaLLY So FuN tO thInK THaT i HavE bEeN InhAbItInG THIs wOrLd foR aLmOsT 23 yEaRs nOw---a rEAl TRiViAL FaCt THaT I cOnSiDeR oNe oF thE gReatESt aChIeVeMeNtS I EvEr hAd. hAvInG SuRvIvEd thE piTfALLS Of INsIde-mY-MoM'S WoMB FoR At lEaSt 9 MONthS, bOttLe-fEd fOr SoMe timE, CrAdlEd tO sLeeP, NOuRiShEd wItH loVe, eMbRaCeD WiTh CaRe... (THe LItaNy GoEs oN...), i NOw KnEw nO fEar... thE DEmonS, mOsQuItOeS, olD fOLktALeS aNd a wHolE LOt oF NOt-sO-SooTH-BeLIefS FinAllY mAdE THeIr wAy To THe GRavE. And fEaR Is nOw nOwHerE.

         i wOuLd bE tELLiNg a lIe If I i sAiD I nEvER OnCe fEarED DeAtH. BuT As deAtH BecOmEs moRe AnD moRe VAgUe To MOsT Of Us, iT bEcOMeS mOrE AnD MOrE cLeAr tO Me thAt tHIs iS WhERe eVeRyoNe sTiLL hAs To bE...

          I finally came to the point where I'm about to lose my hope. Davastating as it may seem to you, but oh hell I'm telling the truth. Losing hope at age 22? Ridiculous! This dilemma startled me for like, "Oh 30 minutes"? That's a whole lot of nonsense in there. I remember a phase in my life when I had to choose between myself and the people who dominate the world. Yes, I was caught in the middle of trying to sacrifice myself---with all freedom there in--- to let people know I have worth in this world and breaking the silence all for the better. Of course I had to choose myself. Afterall, I'm selfish! Ahahaha...

         This world must have been so intriguing that it cares about what I should be and what  I should not be. People often mistook me as just a laid-back dude, a drugstore cowboy, a naive rascal, u say it. But more often than not, they just don't know I know my worth and I sure know how to make use of it! I guess God never let me live in this world for no reason at all. I am here for a mission. I am here for a destiny. But life is a trail that leads to where one would ask how he would fit in. I believe it just has to do with how YOU would fit in. 

                    Damn, I have always believed that some friendships don't really last too long. And I am sure you do too, folks! What else in the world could be as hurting as knowing someone who would slip away like bubble which just disappeared in a wink of an eye. That's really a heck of a crap. Sure everybody does agree that loyalty is a major component of a lasting friendship, which sure is what everyone who's caught in any relationship needs.

                   Life is a rich world that everybody around you is a stranger on his own self. You could be meeting a soldier who is also a painter himself. Or you could be talking to a millionaire who's got a heart of a terrorist or a leftist may be.

                  Friendship is like a honey. Yes, it sure is sweet! But friendship can also be like a bee. It stings hard! Ouch, man!

                  

     i'v BeeN sO BuSy thEsE LAsT Few dAYs... gOnna tAkE A LoNg ResT...

    ThIS iS ALL AbOuT bEiNg hIP, DaRiNg aNd "SimpLy YOu". ThE wOrLd-WiDe pROtEstS, THe rALLiEs, tHe gRAfT, THe tHriLLs aNd tHe gRuDgEs... ThE diLeMMAs fAcInG THe yOuTh tOdAy... tHIs sPaCe iS ALL fOr tHOsE WhO CaRe AnD DarE...