i just wonder. . .

how many stories are there behind those bright lights. . .

rain pouring down the streets. . .

children dancing in the rain. . .

sick people are freezing 'cause of the cold air. . .

many lives were taken away. . .

but i have one question. . .

how many souls are about to suffer. . .?

no answers yet. . . but still searchin' . . . still observin' . . .

still witnessing their own stories . . . still . . .


still doing nothin'. . . and that's a BIG MISTAKE . . .



i just thought of how hard to live life perfectly . . .

imagine., everytime i sit by the window of our car/bus im riding . . .

i see different faces . . .

unknown faces . . .

but . . .

there's one FACT behind these things . . .
behind these scenes . . .



THESE PEOPLE ARE FACING THE SAME TRIALS in LIFE . . .



try OBSERVING . . . you'll know what i mean . . .

since im now in college.. i really miss blogging.. im very busy right now.. and i really miss you guys.. :(

by the way.. i made a new header though.. comments please.!! :D

Is this world like a cup?
When half empty, it's pessimistic;
when half full is it optimistic?
is the world never-ending like the horizon I seek?
will I die when I reach this horizon?
are these questions enough to justify what I feel?
discontent sears my eyes..
It burns my lips like the tears that flowed through my eyes..
am I still alive or am I just dreaming?
such questions and paradoxes haunt me..
In my dreams and in reality..
will I be happy if I float like the dandelions in the field?
will I be contented when I reach heaven?
It seems that comfort only meets my heart every time I'm with you..
my questions are answered slowly..
pretending that reality are only bad dreams flinches..
i love you and i don't know what to do without you.,
you solved my questions and I am ready to give up everything..
I just have to be with you.. I love you..

remember TEDDiiE.?? or AARON.??
kami na., nung august 3., hahaha.,
our monthsary is near.,
yey.!! =)

i LOVE him soo much.!! =)

to SUM up the week..ü

August 28. . .

we had our NCAE test.,
actually.,
it's not that difficult than what i'm expecting.,
and i have this feeling that no one will fail in that exam.,
ahm.,
after the test.,
we went to tatang's house.,
i bonded with the "TAMOLIMO"..
and then we recorded some videos.,
after that.,
anuh pa nga ba.??
ahm., ahm.,
we went home already by 6 or 7pm.,

the next day...

August 29. . .

KAMPiiSE day.,
this day was fun.,
the booths are opened.,
and our batch won the "HAPAG... (sumthin contest)"., that means we'll have a free day on Monday., yeah.!!!
anyweiz.,
first thing in the morning pala.,
nag-TAMPO ako ky PoCoYo.,
pero naayos din naman.,
then we spent the whole day with each other.,
kuha ng pics jan., kuha ng pics don., kuha ng pics kung san-san., VAiiN kase kmi.,
tapos.,
nag poster making contest pa pala kami., hahaha.,
ayun.,
ang dami din namin kinita sa MARRiiAGE booth.,
kase sapilitan na pagppakasal eh., wahahaha.,
then., dismissal na.,
still with my PoCoYo.,
umattend kase pala siya ng practice kela AiX.,
hehehe.,
saglit nlng then i have to go.,
soo., nung 5pm na.,
hinatid ako ni PoCoYo sa 7-eleven., [meeting place nmin ni iEL]
taz tumambai muna kmi 2 dun kase la pa ung hinihintay ko.,
we bought some drinks.,
i bought somethin' for him and he bought somethin for me too.,
i bought c2 and the chocolate somethin for him., and i got nestle fruit juice.,
then., nag pics nanaman kami.,
hahaha., actually., he endorsed the products.. hahaha.,
ayun., natatawa pa nga samin ung guard eh.,
then after that.,
iEL came., soo., PoCoYo went back to AiX's house.,
then me and iEL went to SM., ATC., then to SM again to buy a gift for PoCoYo.,
i bought him a green and yellow nike wallet.,
we bought some stuffs and a box from simple joys.,

REGINA SPEKTOR - Samson You are my sweetest downfall I loved you first, I loved you first Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth I have to go, I have to go Your hair was long when we first met Samson went back to bed Not much hair left on his head He ate a slice of wonder bread and went right back to bed And history books forgot about us and the bible didn't mention us And the bible didn't mention us, not even once You are my sweetest downfall I loved you first, I loved you first Beneath the stars came fallin' on our heads But they're just old light, they're just old light Your hair was long when we first met Samson came to my bed Told me that my hair was red Told me I was beautiful and came into my bed Oh I cut his hair myself one night A pair of dull scissors in the yellow light And he told me that I'd done alright And kissed me 'til the mornin' light, the mornin' light And he kissed me 'til the mornin' light Samson went back to bed Not much hair left on his head Ate a slice of wonderbread and went right back to bed Oh, we couldn't bring the columns down Yeah we couldn't destroy a single one And history books forgot about us And the bible didn't mention us, not even once You are my sweetest downfall I loved you first ---------------------------------------------------------------------- FM STATIC - Tonight I remember the times we spent together All those drives, we had a million questions All about our lives And when we got to New York everything felt right I wish you were here with me, Tonight I remember the days we spent together, were not enough, it used to feel like dreaming Except we always woke up, Never thought not having you here now Would hurt so much Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up I need your loving hands to come and pick me up And every night I miss you I can just look up And know the stars are Holding you, holding you, holding you Tonight I remember the time you told me

do i really have to live life like this? why should i always get hurt... i've been hurt many times but when will i be happy? whenever i love someone, i'm always the one who cries and left broken... i don't know what to do with my life anymore... yes, i know. i'm still young and there's alot of guys out there who i could meet, so what's the point of it.? if everytime i'll meet a guy? i always get hurt... my eyes are tired., my heart is tired., i am tired of it., tired of everything., all i want to have is a guy who will love me, a guy who will never leave me., but i guess., it'll never happen., and crap.!!! i don't know what to say., it's just that., im broken, shattered, and lost...