Oh well, it's my 1st entry in december. And i'm kinda feeling way too lazy to blog nowadays. So much to do, so little time.. i might go bonkers.

My RMIT confirmation letter has already arrived and i'll probably settle visa and air tix somewhere this week whenever my dad's free. I've yet to apply for a credit card! And my agent for the apartment had not got back to me! Grrr..

Anyway i've already bought a laptop. Asus A8JP! WohOo! It's fast for a laptop and yeahness great graphic card! Bought a logitech laser mouse also.. very smooth!

In the midst of this chaos.. i actually manage to settle legal documents for the new HDB flat. So hmm.. i can put dat away for now. 2 months left in singapore and Aaarrrgghh!

I'd recently discover this 3D chat thingy called IMVU. It kinda took me by surprise as i didn't expect it to be Sims-like. Haha.. so it kinda got me excited.

The only thing i don't like about it is that.. er we had to pay for clothing. But oh well, we'll get 1,500 credits if you sign up. So i did manage to buy a hairdo, sunglasses and a t-shirt for free. Haha!

There are ways for you to earn free credits. But oh well.. i'm just there for a chat. So.. if u guys ever decided to join IMVU, do add DarkStar83 as ur buddy. Cause that will be me.

So why wait? Join now by clicking HERE and start getting to know me better.

Chat with ya later if u see me online.

Dear Sykin,
I've got a letter I would like to send.
It's lacking strings of words with punctuation at the ends.
Should I trust this dialect to convey the right effect?

Dear Sykin,
I've got some things I'd like to set in pen.
I would have used a pencil, but lead's just not permanent.
Should I trust my printers ink to express the things I think?

Every page I tried my best to think of something to contest with
Inside jokes and other folks who've got much more to say.

Dear Sykin,
This envelope will represent my heart.
I'll seal it, send it off, and wish it luck with it's depart.
This stamp will be every action that carry my affection
Across the air, and land, and sea.
Should I trust the postage due to deliver my heart to you?

Give you all I can
Flower and a hand
I hope this helps you see

Signed,
Sincerely me.

It feels good to chat with the one you're really interested in. It's not a fatal attraction, and i've known her for a few years now. But due to me being a lil' hyper today, i felt comfortable talking about how i feel towards her.

After a long time, i finally send her "If You Wanna.. I Might" song by Hellogoodbye to her, and stating that i'm dedicating the song to her. The lyrics of this song can be found on my previous entry which is like weeks or months ago.

And yeah.. i asked her to check out the lyrics. She knew exactly what it meant, but just asked me what it meant just wanna make me a bit "paiseh". But oh well, i still say the same thing i did last year.. which is, i'm not expecting anything and friendship last longer than relationship.

I'm going to australia next year to study and who knows what's gonna happen there. So i guess i'll just regard this feelings i had towards her as "extended infatuation". Haha!

But sometimes i do wonder, it would be extremely nice if i'll ever end up with her. Hmm, guess that'll be just a wishful thinking.. who wanna get on with a stupid boy!

It's 4 in the morning.. tried to sleep but i can't stop coughing the moment i start to lie down. So here i am rambling away in another potentially lame entry.

I've started to study again yesterday. Started on Windows 2003 Server and seems like there are alot of things to catch up. The next thing i'm gonna master is Unix. Seems like there's loads of programming in it, hope i don't go "Ki Siow" after reading it.

Been chatting with Baizurah, an old secondary school friend of mine for the last couple of days. It seems to confirm on how low profile i've been during my secondary school years. But at least there are some people who notice me except that i don't really remember most of them. Haha. And it seems to be most of these old schoolmates of mine are married and with kids.

Shocking ain't it? And to top it all off.. i'm 23, 24 in less than 5 months and i'm still yet to find a girlfriend while they all have already started their own family. Kinda make me feel left out. Haha.. Oh fuck it! I'll just get my education straightened out first and den a career. Relationships comes last.

Honestly.. i'm still feeling the bite from my previous relationship. They say once bitten twice shy. But they don't really state how long will that last. Haha.. Well, i dunno. Hmm.. what if i'll still act the way i was if there's a new one comes along.. and what if the same thing occurs again if i get serious with the new one. I'll be in the deepest shithole if dat happens.

Perhaps i shall just remain on the safe side. The single side.

Enough of boredom. I think i've been going out more than i'd expected this week. And it feels good actually. Better den get stuck at home and feeling that i'm good for nothing. Haha.

So oh well.. i went out with Sean, my poly classmates and my long long long time ago primary school friend Diana today and hangout at their neighbourhood. Little Diana was alot taller than me when we parted our ways from the now extinct Boon Keng Primary School. Now she's just Miss Shorty! Haha.. 10 years did make me grow tremendously taller.

And we talked about those good old days and input swakoo Diana about NS life with the aid of Sean. And to my surprise.. she doesn't even know her neighbourhood.. haha bet she'll get lost if u throw her somewhere in Bishan other than her block.

Anyway, after 10 years, i managed to discover things that i hadn't know or realise before. Things such as.. a friend of mine, who is a band mate dat plays flute, my head prefect (yes i was a prefect in pri sch) and my classmate actually has feelings for me during those days. I know i did like her at a time, but nvr thought she would've liked me back.. haha.

Guess somebody do really like me for what i am.. cause i'm not smart, not handsome.. and simply a lil' retarded while i was in primary school. Haha. But i am glad to catch up with a primary school friend after 10 years of not meeting one another. Not everyone has dat chance right?

If you notice, the frequency of me blogging here is getting lower. Oh, well.. i blog more on my official site @ http://www.apple-shampoo.per.sg so check it out if you have time.

Honestly, i'm extremely bored right now. Woke up on a weird hour and can't get back to sleep. So here i am rambling about nothing. Played a bit of GTA: Vice City Stories on my psp and den got bored.

Can't help but thinking, how fast this year seems to pass. Soon i'll turn 24, which only means a year to go till mid-20s. I'm getting old and lacking of goals, looks like it some kind of a bad thing for me.

Hopefully i get all the things in life figure out before i turn the big 30.

This song relates to how i felt about this girl and what it seems to be and the situation i'm in or was in.

Hellogoodbye - If You Wanna I Might

You take a seat right next to me
And i take my lit notes nervously
I've gotta stay calm, I just want you to stay
I am always daydreaming
Hoping you've dream of the same thing
I've gotta stay calm, I don't want this to change

I've been assuming everything
Hoping you'll soon mean everything
I've gotta stay calm, I want this to be real
But I don't think you're into me
And truly thats okay with me
I've gotta stay calm and find out how you feel

But if you wanna say 'i-i-i like you'
I might feel just like you
And if you choose-choose not to
I knew-knew you would

Sometimes i think i am out of my league
And then sometimes i think i can dream
Sometimes i wish i could be the one fish
That you choose out of all in the sea

We are non existent
But I'll try to be persistent
I've gotta keep on if I want to be close to you
I know you're uninterested
I'm probably just some stupid kid
I could give up if you would want me to

I've just completed my official blog site just minutes ago. Hope that you all will be among the first few to check it out.

So don't hesitate.. go to
www.apple-shampoo.per.sg
RIGHT NOW!

Usually i get grumpy whenever it rains.. but today, i'm glad that it's raining! Finally it'll help to clear the haze. Been doing nothing much except that i'd wrecked the washing machine. Haha.. i was doing my laundry for the clothes i've brought back from Melbourne that was yet to wash.

Uploaded the new mugshot pics. I took it at my friend's studio apartment in Melbourne. The pic taken is what you see below. Moody faces.. haha