Fuck those who love to back stab me!!!!Some more in front of people who I knw much!!ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.HELL TO THOSE WHO TREAT ME LIKE THAT!!!!!!!!!!!I have never been so angry before though i always in bad mood!!!!
I am not tired of complaining(do i know what is the word of tired?)What the heck?!Today,Belle82 got back stab by those who i know....Oh 'Great? is that?
Those who know me,if i got back stab,well,I will be so piss off and revengeful and Hooohahahhaha,here comes the devil.....
I really want to confront that stupid person!!!Fuck the hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Now i know the truth............. the truth is out there(the X-files music played as a background)Sigh!
Belle,calm down and stay as cool as you can.Don't you ever think to.......well, cool,be cool.I am going to kill someone over here?!Can't you bring your stupid fellows to other house?Why do u have to waste petrol to bring your stupid frens over here and dirt the whole house!!pervert and smelly rubbish!!!!!I just hate them.Stupid and fuck them off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just wanna kill all of them!!useless stupid pervert boys!!!!!!!!What the heck is going wrong in their mind?Have the nearest house but still come here just to waste the petrol?!Fuck them off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BIG sigh!!i am desperately wanted to join the contest but seeing other bloggers entries making me wanna give up!!I just can't write well in which i have try to write for all this year.Thats why I am having this blog just to improve my writing skills aside from being crazy over here.What the heck?!
I am just don't know every topics that pop up from the website?What should i write?Fashion and lifestyles?Look at me!belle,in fashion topics?!Whoaahahah!I can't stop laughing about it!C'mon!I didn't even care about my fashion styles.I just be myself and who cares about my fashion trend?I can't even afford even a single shirts or even blouse or whatever u name it.What the heck am i talking about?
Seriously, again!!I want to scream again over here!!!Arggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhghghghgh!!!
told you not to read my blog......I am so sad when you read my blog....sigh....i just don't know why you don't know me yet....I am like that..this is my space and i love to express my feeling here...so that's why i write all it here cos i know i am goin to hurt other people feeling by writing this....my blog is full of hatred yet still i am enjoying myself here.cos this is ME!!
Not all that i write here is real,pls do understand...blogging is a way for me to escape from the real world.I can't scream in the reality but i can scream here.Besides,it designed to let us shout,don't you agree?
I am suppose to write something today but it turn out into something.sigh...well, today,i bought a sugar-free cake for mother's day.Hate it cos when i bring it back,my mum's friend critize/critise me and the cake.Say,the cake it too sweet lah and that lah.I was like 'pls kill her for me!!!quick,stop me from killing her!!damn it!!fuck her!!!she even comes near the cake and ask,'so,how much is it?RM30?? Again,I was like 'WHAT?!RM30?What on earth that we have a SECRET RECIPE'S CAKE IN RM30?!?If in this world i have that such a cheap cake,i would love to buy as many cake that i want these days....That AUNTY even said,well, these days,cakes are much expensive than the other.I was like ha?!!!I told her that the cake consider ' cheap'compare to other famous cakes as well.I just hate her since i was young.my dad too.Her mouth is full of poisonous sting from the bees.hehehe..
Gosh,fire burning from my head now...quick,please water me!!ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGHGHHAHAGAHAGAAAGH
Sigh,why my life full of sighing sound?i am just a damn loser in this cruel world!!I can't just be happy with what i have!Dad got sick,mum is not healthy,bro is still struggling with his test and me?struggling why am i living in this world!!Damn.....
Bored now.............
Sigh,shit......again.why the troubles keep coming and coming?Am i a person who attracts troubles?sigh.....I am going to explode...I am trapped in a body who I don't even know about myself?!Trapped....A job which i hated the most..a job which I couldN't even understand why i still keep going and going?A job which can't even pay enuf just to own a car...a job which i trapped and feel wanted to scream but fail to do that so in a cruel society...a job in which I couldn't be happy enuf just to satisfy me..
Adding to it,a planned marriage?!Well,get the hell out here.I just couldn't belive that my family try to find someone that they think HE will 'suits' me?!I just feel like what the fuckening hell is happening here?!!!Fuck!!!Can i screammmm..here?YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!NOW!!!!!!!ArGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHGGGGGGGHAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGH
What a long journey.......sigh....should i continue or quit from the journey...sigh again..My mind is full of thinking and heart numb to everything....Sigh again....Tired, restless,and numb ,that is the only thing that i can say..lost my respect to someone that i really respected...gone....like the wind
Falling into a deep trap now....should i rescue myself.......?
Hiaz......o sad to see you like this cos I know that person in you!It was me when I became jobless and I know the way you feel cos I have been there before....Sigh,I don't know to help you and at the same time helping me out.I really hope that you can find a suitable job....
Any jobs that suits you or to make you happy because I can't bear seeing you like that.When i was jobless,you have been there for me and try to lift me up but at the same time I fail to feel your sincerity.I know now you are acting the same thing.I can't say anything because I was so tired.I really hope that I can lift your life out.Sometimes,I wonder whether you feel that my swing mood influence you to be like this.I feel so sad thinking you 'thinking' of me be an energy sponge.I don't know cos i never think you like that and expecting you will understand me but you are not.So sad to think that we are different............................
Numb and sick of everything in my life!!!I really hate teaching anymore but I just could not quit!Economic downturn.I feel restless and tired and fell like I don't want to say things or even try to express it out.Anyway,really miss this place over here.Thank you, beautiful souls!!for helping and guiding to a correct way to scream it out!!I just couldn't believe I can be a teacher,some more a good teacher is not easy to do!!!I feel there is something I can express my creativity and not just by teaching!!!
God, help me!!!!