My handwriting doesn’t quite match my age.

    :-/ Yes it is as tragic as it sounds. You have no idea how I consciously and carefully I write notes (for others) and telephone messages to mask the fact that I write ...immaturely. :-/ Block letters or small caps, they’re usually pretty ugly. And considering the amount of writing I have to do in my life, thank god for Microsoft Word and the printer but STILL there are instances when my authentic handwriting is required for the world to see and that’s when the cat’s outta the bag. I believe I am (informally and unofficially) banned from writing anything that will be read from a distance away for a certain job. And I don’t blame them. I mean no one told me that to my face but I have better sense to get someone else to write it rather than writing it myself. Ha.
   
    Anyway, isn’t it interesting how you can identify where a piece of handwriting is from?! I mean I can always tell when I get a letter/ package from the States (without looking at the stamps) just by looking at handwriting of my name and address. They have these roundish fat little words with considerable spacing. Europeans (generally, in my humble observation) on the other hand usually write in cursive, often complicated and harder to read with very little spacing in between words.  Asians… I don’t know, they write in a variety of styles as far as I can tell. I think it’s just interesting how we adapt to a certain style of handwriting and why some people have like nice neat handwriting while some just can’t seem to outgrow the way they write. :-/

    I also think it’s interesting to see how much writing with a pen will be relevant in future considering all this typing we’ve grown accustomed to …

Danny Noriega should go out with William Sledd!

    Okay I know I’m probably not the only person in the world to think so but I don’t mind some credit if that ever happens, *LoL*.
 

    Okay. So here’s the thing. My political convictions are not usually centered on politicians. I’ve never been the type to have that much faith or … trust in politicians in general.

    But there is just something about this year’s US presidential elections that’s just far too… exciting to ignore. You must be really… busy (and overwhelmingly ignorant) if you’re still unaware of the buzz that surrounds the race to the White House.

    And as I was saying I’m weary of politicians and their promises and all that jazz BUT there is just something about this man that makes me want to rock this:

Damn.

    Yeah I am growing enough faith in him to want to wear that. But… I don’t know, I still think I’m not entirely informed about the whole situation. I mean, there are still some angles I’m sure I’ve been missing out on. But for now, yeah, I’d want to wear that shirt. Hopefully in between now and the day I’ll be rocking that, I’ll be able to sort out my uncertainties.

    And hopefully by that time, I’ll be confident enough to give my official endorsement. Ha.

    Can’t wait to see how Super Tuesday turns out. Let’s do this people! Okay technically I can’t do shit to leave an impact on the results but if you can, please do. It affects the rest of the world more than it affects a single country. But of course you know that by now.  

    I was recently reunited with a past love.

    And I mean Love. Like love. Back then there were times when I just couldn’t get though the day without him… yes him by my side. It wasn’t an addiction kinda love but you know I really enjoyed having him around.

     Then circumstances tore me apart from him and although I made efforts to stay in touch with him, but with my new circumstances I only came around to check up on him when it’s convenient for me. Like when I need to pass time. And due to these circumstances, maybe there were other new loves along the way but you know, he wasn’t forgotten, there were days when I actually craved for what he once provided me. Then one day he just disappeared and I just couldn’t figure it out. I don’t who the first person to ask and … he’s just not there anymore. I missed him but eventually it was like, *shrug* I managed to get by without him in my life.

    SO then like recently, it all started out with a supposed introduction and turned out into the whole, “Oh I didn’t know you know him as well!” Initially I was SO happy to know that he’s still around, then I felt silly that he’s not too far from where I last saw him and all the while I was wondering what happened to him. But when I finally saw him, it was just… like, you know different. He’s changed. For better or worse, I can’t tell for now. There were things about him that I felt I wasn’t able to connect with anymore, like there were things I used to know so well but now I wasn’t too sure. At the same time there’s still a part him that knew me well enough to know how to treat me and what to expect out of me but it’s just that ... you know, time changed us both. I was a bit lost, trying to get back into the flow and chemistry of us but there were things that changed and I KNOW I can’t get them back. 

    Then after a while of course I was overwhelmed by how much I actually miss him. Like I can’t believe he’s been gone from my life for so long! And I was reminded of what I missed. The good thing is, the thing I loved most about him didn't change. Much.

    I don’t know what the future will be like but for now I’m just glad we’re re-united. :-D

I (still) love you, Mr Teh Tarik.

    Who would have known that buying a dictionary comes with so much stress and excitement. A quality dictionary, at that. I made the mistake of buying a dictionary on sale a few years back, and you know those don’t match to kick-ass quality dictionary with like you know cool-ass words. I didn’t even end up using that damn thing, I still kept and used my old beat up dictionary I’ve had since… 1996 instead. Yeah I know, that’s been waaay too long, there’s like a gazillion new words out since then and it hurt me to use it in that state so I decided to finally put it to rest! I’ll probably drop it into the recycling bin tomorrow or something.  

    So yeah, there I was standing there in front a huge shelf of dictionaries, you gotta choose from a huge selection, true? And I was like, I do not know how to choose the ‘best’ dictionary though I knew I didn’t want to get Oxford ‘coz I am so not into Brit English (anymore), but yeah I managed to settle for one without being overly paranoid about words I might be missing out on. :) 
 
    Yes, I love my new dictionary.

From this : to this: 

    I am actually nervous and excited to watch this. You know how it is when they make a book into the movie. There’s gonna be parts that are not represented and we’ll argue about its significance in the novel. Then I’ll whine about how it wasn’t like how I imagined it when I read the book and that the film tainted my memory and experience of reading it the first time. Then when these motherfuckers come around and rave about the movie, I’ll be like “Oh but did you read the book? You really should.” *Polite smile*

    It’s like there’s obviously something powerful about the art of the written word that cannot be accurately translated onto the silver screen no matter how prolific the (adapted) screenwriter is, you know what I mean? And trust me, this is coming from someone who has much love for film and is familiar with the toil it takes execute one, BUT nothing can replace literature for what it’s worth.

    Yes, Literacy is Superfly, y’all.  

    Damn.

     Not all of 'em are songs from this year though... In no particular order.  At all. 

* ‘Coz small town dreams do come true/ * 

* So if you see us in the club go on & walk the other way/ * 

* I see you winding and grinding up on that pole/ I  know you see me looking at you & you already know/ *

* Right now, he's probably buying her some fruity little drink 'coz she can't shoot whiskey/

* Oh boy you really shouldn't waste your time/ Let me back up on you dancehall style/ *

* Speak soft with a big stick, “Do as I say or be killed, I'm America!” *

* We'll have it good/ We'll live the life we know we would/ *

* I wish I could touch you again/ I wish I could still call you my friend/ *

* We all know they can't hold us down, look at how beautiful we are/ *

* The rats on the street/ All dance around my feet/ They seem to say Tracy it's up to you/ So oh oh oh oh/ Don't hold me back 'coz tonight all my dreams will come true/*

* I get the feeling that I'm gonna end up loving you/ If you don't wanna hurt me, then boy watch what you do/ *

* I don't mean to interrupt your life but I just wonder do I ever cross your mind? *

* We got beautiful women/ And they all seem know their way around the kitchen/ *

* I go for mine/ I got to shine/ Now throw you hands up in the sky/ *

* They say it's hard for a pimp but extra hard for these hos/ *

* Just watch my wildest dreams come true/ Not one of them involving/ *

* Big dreams in my head, empty my tummy/ Might crack a smile but ain't nothing funny/ *

* 'Coz money was paid to change the way history looks/ *

* When I feel like I almost had you but... *

* Boy I wonder what would happen if I trip and let you in/ Don’t get shook by my aggression 'coz I might be the one/ *

* We're never gonna beat this if belief is what we're fighting for/ *

* And she answers to G.O.D./ And she's confident this is not the end/ Ask me how I know 'coz she is me/ *

* If you wanna get smart for the sake of your heart & all/ You should own your name & stand up tall/ *

* But don't react now/ You can't go back now/ Don't panic panic, Mutya/ Just look ahead now/ *

* The ladies don't know the real from the fake/ You got a problem come & say it to my face/ *

* More history, less mystery/ More Beyonce, less Britney/ *

* Use me as you will/ Pull my strings just for a thrill/ And I know I'll be okay/ Though my skies are turning gray/ *

* I'm not running oh/ I'm not hiding/ If you dig a little deeper you will find me/ *

* You got me so hypnotized the way your body rolling round & round/ That booty keep bouncing, titties just bouncing up & down/ *

* It's almost like a dream come true, 47 years of Fidel & he might be through/ *

* Struggle is my address where pain & crack lives/ *

* Tear down the mountains, just scream & shout/ You can say what you want, I'm not walking out/ *

* Blew me a kiss I trip & I fell/ *

* The only time I say crackers is for my calm chowder/ *

* Gonna pop my pills from a Pez dispenser/ Get washed-up singers writing all my songs/ Lip sync 'em every night so I don't get 'em wrong *

* You can come from Europe or come from Africa/ One blood/ *

* You ever met dude you can't get out your mind/ You go to sleep, he's in your dreams, he's with you all the time/ *

* It took too long it took too long for you to call back & normally I would forget just that except for the fact it was my birthday/ My stupid birthday/ *

* 'Coz when you're feeling low and/ You can't get no lower/ That's when you know you're close/ *

* Congo beats, Feng Shui and Zen/ Jump around Junior Gong & Gwen/ *

* Speak up if you do/ You're not easy to find/ *

* Like Shakira belly-dancing on the Grammy Awards/ Like Beyonce clapping her booty on the MTV show/ *

* Been looking forward to the future/ But my eyesight is going bad/ *

* She ain't even playing when she's shaking that romper/ *

* My wish for you is that this life becomes all that you want it to/ *

    I think I’ve finally discovered the perfect size of candy cane for me. You know how it is with them, if they’re too long, they get kinda troublesome and erm, disgusting after a while. And yeah, you can get quite sick of a really long candy cane. But if they too small and tiny, you can’t get enough of those stripes! And yeah, they’ll break easily too.

    Do you know what it’s like to be in an alliance and someone (A) within the alliance did something towards another alliance member (B) which you are greatly appalled by when B told you about it and you gave you two cents worth but eventually but B doesn’t want to aggressively do anything about the matter and gave in to tolerate A’s actions and it’s not your place to tell A off since he/ she did not specifically display such behavior towards you (probably because A knows better not to!), it’s something between A and B, plus you don’t want to upset the dynamics of the alliance for whatever reasons.       

    Don’t you hate one of those situations where you were introduced to a couple of people (C and D) like, 1.5 year back by a good friend (E) of like, I don’t know, ten years and you later learn that C had a fall out with D and eventually E had a fall out with C and circumstances have it that you get to see D around now and the both of us are handling that with such awkwardness because we know that any attempt to finally acknowledge each other will lead to having to conduct small talk about C and E and we know well I know that I will be defensively stand up for E in whichever way that conversation might go.

OR

    One of those situations where you’ve been tight with two people (F and G) for a substantial amount of time that people recognize you as a unit and then you finally realize that F and G are not contributing (much) to the life and lifestyle you desire and start to (subconsciously or otherwise) drift away them and like later on, you are put in a circumstance where you got to be cool with H who knew F and G (and have heard of the unit you were once a part of) and had to explain for yourself to H why you lost touch with them but you know you have to mince your words ‘coz the circle is small enough for your words to sneak up on you and bite you in the ass.

    Or when you have to nonchalantly pretend that nothing changed when someone (J) you’ve literally known all your life decided to leave the social context that brought you together but recently eventually came around to join it again, especially since J is your cousin.     

OR

    When in a… social setting K came up to you with an intention of interest but your interest is diverted to his friend L and you don’t want to make an effort to stay in touch with L ‘coz you don’t want to have to offend K or anything like that and at the same time it just kills you to just sit there and not give in to the temptation to subtly ask K about L and after you do, it disappoints you to learn that given the external circumstances, this is the best it can get.


    Have you been in a situation where you finally realize how political you are when it comes to (any kinda) relationships?