Actually, i've been feeling a little weird lately. Suddenly feel a kind of strange feeling towards my family. At home, just cannot get to sleep. I don't know why, but im actually kinda scared.
My home isn't like a home at all. Its like a hotel that i would be checking out eventually. no events happening, even if there are events, it won't be in a family, but a whole group of people.
Suddenly feel there is no meaning to life, that there is nothing i can look forward to. I love mtv mobbed, because my friends won't be able to see what i really have got to say. Usually i will tell them my problems, but recently, i feel that i really cannot let them know what i am feeling right now, worrying that they might actually try to talk to me, worry for me and sometimes, things might get worst for me too.
sometimes i hate to pretend everything will be alright, i hate to pretend, everything is fine, but when im alone, i really feel a sense of linliness, that no one is there, and there is no one, and nothing i can turn to..
heyy.. back.. lols.. been really busy lately with all my final project of the year, where i had to built an exhibition space? stressed out man.. anyways..
can't really sleep now and its already 4am. god. i really have to learn to sleep early.. even my dad said i looked worn out.
BLAME IT ON MY PROJECT!
Now at my boyfriends house during new year.. haha.. yep.. locking myself on the computer while he spend his time having fun gambling. For me, i sorta hate gambling. Well it actually all depends. With what kinda people. Now, im not in the mood to gamble at all. During the new year, although its a tradition to gamble and drink all day, going crazy all day long, i dun seem to enjoy thse at all. Perhaps im influenced by television? but i just simply don't like it. i just enjoy recieving red packets from my relatives. Well there is quite a few people behind me that i dislike to be around with, which makes my day even worst. But the best thing is, whatever i have to type in here, none of them will ever know, because they are simply too chinese cultured to watch mtvasia. Anyway, bored here even though i suprised my boyfriend with my presence. haiz..
So its been days since i saw my boyfriend, as, well, he is now serving the national service, and i kinda miss him.
Is it just me, or am i really bored! theres nothing to do in singapore! yeah sure there are loads of shopping malls and stuff. But it aint fun anymore. Theres no life here man, what else can i do except sit at home and rot..
Thank goodness theres mtv.. if not i wouldn't know what to do with my life!!!!
Im back! hahahahahaha... got my comput crashed and had to get a new com.. now this come is flatter, smaller, and faster! cool huh.. from hp..
well.. now im back but same old life.. still got lotsa projects to do.. so kinda stressed out right now?
okie.. cya!!!
yeah.. today its my last day of work! no more troublesum promotion, no more pathetic supervisors, no more lazy isetan staffs~ woohoo!!!!
yah.. wat i've said.. katong isetan is the most lowdown, unorganized isetan among all the isetans in singapore. I mean, the staff there don't do anything! Despite me being a promoter, i always see myself helping other brands with their customers when its suppose to bethe ISetan's staff's job to serve other brands. when i enter the store room, i always find those staff sleeping in the store room. argh. how bout the supervisor there? All they do is pick of promoters who tries hard to do their jobs. argh. it aint fair. KATONG ISETAN SUCKS!
its good dat all that is over... back to school!
haiz.. today was a horrible day.. although i went to watch "Devil Wears PRada".. and it was a great movie, and everything was fineat that moment.. went to "Gengki Sushi" for lunch, but suprisingly i ate very little, maybe i was too full! haha..
When i got home.. everything was still going smoothly, and had my dinner and all. The food was great, however my dad wasn't at home yet. When the night was reaching, things started to get bad. After doing my facial, my dad came into my room and we had a talk.. and it was one of the worst talks i had in my life. He told me he was moving out due to the fact that he couldn't get along well with my mom? haiz. Knew this day would come, but just didn't think it would come so soon. Now, what can i do? My dad is old, and im really worried that no one can take care of him. Can anyone tell me what to do?
My dad gave me everything in my life. So did my mom. My mom and dad still loves each other very much. Just that they wouldn't show. Why won't they show? Come to think of it, they have been asking us to behave more like adults when they themselves have been behaving like a kid. In fact, no one can ever behave like an adult naturally. To what i have seen, yeah maybe u can see the teacher is upright, the daddy dominates the family, the mom is really elegant. But frankly speaking, their true behavior is worst than you can ever imagine. *rolls eyes*
Come to think of it, its really funny how they tried to teach us the meaning of life, when they themself cannot understand their lives.
whao.. just got back from work! well not really, but it sure feels like it!
anyway, its my first time posting on moblong.. hehe..
As i was saying.. just got home from a long day.. firstly, work! I, as a shoe promoter, don't really earn much or have much experience, but the topics discussed among the promoters are really a hit! like today, we were suddenly talking about the discrimination of races in malaysia..
well, its kinda true[ no offence ], but although there is a mixture of races in malaysia, chinese, malay, indians, etc, just like singapore. However, the malays in malaysia get all the priviledge instead. The official language is malay, while the chinese will have a hard time keeping up with times in malaysia. It aint fair!!!!!!!
And another thing is, although malaysia has a large land.. do you see it developing? well maybe only Kuala Lumpur, but comparing to singapore, who gained independence way later den malaysia, is so much more developed than many parts of malaysia. Dispite me being half malaysian, I sometimes do feel very uncomfortable in malaysia. But i still do like some of the old small stores, as it really gives me a moment of the past. =)
Well, the main point is.. alot of singaporeans really feel bad for the chinese in malaysia. SOMETHING MUST BE DONE!!!!!!