thought to be her friend but maybe she doesnt even want to be my friend..i show my care n sincerity towards her, bt all i get in return is a complaint..why should it be like that.?She even thought im too girlish that get angry so easily..yes, she might be look tough from outside that even i agree with that..but im sure she has no choice to be like that with regards to her surrounding which force her to be like that..but isnt it ridiculous to say that im doing the wrong thing by giving a girl's birthday present to her??she didnt get my point of giving her back the memory of playing like a girl which i also didnt have any childhood memory on that..its not to hard for you to accept that rather than keep mumbling saying that you dont like that present..dont u know that's hurt??im really disappointed...not hoping you too feel very cheer n expecting the present, but at least,,please show your respect to the frens trying to make this big surprise to you ..

"I m tired of rumours starting, ..im tired of people lying , saying what they want about me..why can they let me live,..."-Rumour(Lindsay Lohan) ...

most of the time , we thought that we know what we are thinking of, but in the end, it looks like we are persuading ourselves to believe what we should believe..i thought its just a joke, or even a rumour that we dun even bother to let everyone know that thats not the real story..but we seems to let everyone start to make their own  conclusions and predict what will happen next.I believe even we dun wan to believe that , but your fren surround will keep telling you that , yes, thats the right thing,its true and you are hiding from the truth...dont they know that by keepig reminding us on what is not true will make the rumours turn into the real fact??..its ridiculous but its true..whatever comes on your mind right now is not really wat u have been trying to do for all these while but its what people try to make you to do..do u believe that/?Sometimes , i give up..saying maybe thats not a bad idea too..but long term, u might even have to sacrifice your dignity and trust from others..they might look at u as a joke,a silly joke though..What should i do to stop all these..?maybe the nite time will be with the tears on our faces..feelig guilty or even regretting on wat we should do before...what we can do before really prove that prevention is better than cure...

Crying baby ..now maybe im the one who will be scold for this ..Im realy jammed so , really seeking help from everyone ..Im doing an assignment about drawing ..We need to design product which is new or modified ..The thing  have to be mechanical , yet simple and easy to draw as i have to draw it in 3D later ..as im newbie in drawing , i need a simple , yet creative idea ..its beter if it related to our everyday life .which help us to solve the problem that we always face ..Thank everybody fro helping this out!!

when u thought something is easy to conquer , the truth always try to attack ur dreams , make it unable to materialized .. yes , should the people deserve something bad and unexpected ..somethingl like big pimple pop up on the face , n make u feel bad for those few days ..maybe its just too shy , but even people wont want to look at u when they noe its the appearance only ..so , jsut give up ..its no use , as ugly ducking will never turn to beaustiful elegant swan ..its no fairy tales , where there is always 'they lived happily ever after "..full stop ..the end ...the princess will never found the princess ..as no fairy will come out to change the pumpkins into a luxurious coach ..no mouses wil be turn to big , strong horses  , and no class high heels that will left behind durign the midnite ..its just a lust , no outstanding fairy will appear from the kitchen to help u dress up for the ball..its jsut all by urself , dun be afraid ..when people start to look down on u ,,just think .im really that  helpless and no mighty warrior will some and lend me a hand .??Gosh , im thinking too much be the main character in a fairy tales while , in the real world , ..nothing such as prince having ball to find a life partner ..the possbilities jsut tooo infinitely small and unpromising ..given the best ann maybe u jsut will slip that chance just one in a million years ..dun just too blindly cos u noe , ist not your choice to do that,..its not optional .,but a must ..people have to start awake from that everlasting dream ..its just too cold-blooded , evil and  inhumanity world that we  live in ....

Submit the rest to the nature ..not doing anything  coz as long as the world still breathing and its not the end of the world , where's there no tomorrow,,Love gonna conquer it all(That's The Way it is-Celine Dion) ???Is it true ,,? seems unbelievable and nothing promising as the time goes by , there seems to be no hope , no bright way that we can ever see the other side , whether its the heaven or hell..nothing ,,Its just a guess ,make a confident gamble , maybe u will get what u want , maybe not ,/.Maybe in the end , its doesn't even matter , i have to fall , to lose it all (In the End-Linkin PArk).Itz true and really sounds good ,..too much hesitation ,just a waste of time ..try what u wanna do before its too late ..it better than we regret it the other day when everything wont be able to get back to normal..Think about it , dream about it ..Shall our dreams really live one day , we will rejoice in His Name ..!

Since its the time to leave ,when i saw his face .it looks a bit different ..I thought maybe im just thinking to much and he dun really feel what i feel (Or maybe what i thought im feeling )..actually i not sure ,,maybe can say it as a little attraction of something more than a fren , but not actually a lust ,,not hate aso..but ..tis too many 'but' that i have to consider and reconsider the consequences..anyone understand what i feel ..? It thought alwyas to be a perfect and happy things but i never feel so ,,Maybe again ..suppose i  should create or giv a chance for myown happiness..haha..sounds too far away ,mayb  im little bit conservative ,,everytime before i try to start another new so called 'relationship' ..i totally feel out of control ..n itsx not like studies ,where u can choose to study or not ..the mind just keep thinking about the same thing over and over again , making lots of assumptions .which neither of them im going to prove whether its true or not ..things happen just in the blink of an eye ..when my ex start to get in touch with me again , which i hope he's not feeling the hurt before ..which i hope he will recover , eventhough my fren keep telling me its not easy to forget ..cal me cold-blooded , but i really dun feel sad o sorry coz im making the right decision for not keep hurting a man 's heart , (eventhough the song say its illegal to deceive a woman's heart -in my case its the man's heart)..anyway nothing posible for usz to control all the time ..szometime , im tired too and need a little  break from this...

U told me how proud u were but i walk away ..If only i knew what i know today ..(Hurt-Christina)

somehow , somewhere , people never realize that they are actually making mistakes and hurt other people hearts before they ever try to make everything start from the very beginning /Why people always being selfish and in the end maybe they start to regret it but its too late ??Start to regret and its too late ..not a little too late but  actually its just too late //

Im doing the bet that maybe we finallly realise that we cant make success alone or live alone in this world ,,no one really can stay long in this world alone .,eventhough in the end we just be on our own..that;s what my fren always  say ..its just too good to be true but thats what life is all about.maybe people are born to be selfish and its not a choice ..

Its nearly Chinese new year which im going to be one of those who should be very excited and waiting for the days to come ..maybe im just too fortunate to feel to enjoy the new year ..most children will very extremely gay when  it comes to new year  , same things goes to most of my fren ...im just being "ordinary' mood ..dun noe , its liek anotehr season of buying things , new clothes , new shoes and everythg new ..like another start ..but my mood and feeling still the old one , battling the people who i dun like at all..whatever , should my pride goes along with new year ..

Its nearly Chinese new year which im going to be one of those who should be very excited and waiting for the days to come ..maybe im just too fortunate to feel to enjoy the new year ..most children will very extremely gay when  it comes to new year  , same things goes to most of my fren ...im just being "ordinary' mood ..dun noe , its liek anotehr season of buying things , new clothes , new shoes and everythg new ..like another start ..but my mood and feeling still the old one , battling the people who i dun like at all..whatever , should my pride goes along with new year ..

Its nealy Chinese new year which im going to be one of those who should be very excited and waiting for the days to come ..maybe im just too fortunate to feel to enjoy the new year ..most children will very extremely gay when  it comes to new year  , same things goes to most of my fren ...im just being "ordinary' mood ..dun noe , its liek anotehr season of buying things , new clothes , new shoes and everythg new ..like another start ..but my mood and feeling still the old one , battling the people who i dun like at all..whatever , should my pride goes along with new year ..