19082006... I took my dinner early today at about 1800H after I went shopping with my family. Then we skipped our dinner because there was not enough space for our tummy to have another intake at around 2030H(Dinner Time). So we planned to take our supper after the midnight-movie instead. I started to feel hungry during the movie and the movie hall was so cold and that really makes me hungrier! I was so starved until I ate so much. This is the menu of what I ate just now. Penang Prawn Mee, Salted Chicken Porridge with “Phei Dan” (preserved egg), One Roasted Pigeon and two glasses of "liong Cha". Wow, yum yum, too much for a supper huh? I really must do extra work out on my abs tomorrow to prevent it from becoming a spare tire. This is the first time I eat Roasted pigeon, way better than chicken because the texture of the meat is so soft and not chewy, really nice!

15082006...Took my Software Engineering test this morning. The questions were so hard to tackle, I left a total of 3 question unanswered, only manage to answer 4 question. Sigh = (...my injured leg swelled even bigger, I can't even wear my leather shoe. So I limp all the way from my hostel to the exam hall with only slippers. This really looks odd because I was wearing my uniform this morning...

 
It was a silent night with bones chilling cold breeze, it was late, midnight, and it was suppose the time for everyone to rest, in fact, everyone did, far away from this dimension, dreaming of something I would never know that is generated by fantasying part of their mind, peacefuly and calm. But in a small space assigned by the management to us, formed by four walls, waves of disturbence was everywhere, traped and echoing in the space that night, the room turned into a football field as if the 2006 Germany World Cup final is taking part, it came from various source, the speaker, the keyboard, and the organ of voice of the SOBs, talking trash about girls and bitching them. Every single wave rush rudely and continuously into my ears for a long period during late at night, disturbing my sleeping hours and awakend the anger of every single cells of mine. I keep on telling myself to be patient, patient, and patient! But everyone has a limit, once overpassed, no more turning back into a soul that is guarded by patient! Implication given, speaked politely but it only turned worst! Flame of anger triggered and burst out like a exploding volcano! Shut of everything and told them clearly! Silence for a short while, then footsteps of SOBs chiken out like a coward, leaving the room without a man to man talk! BANG! there left a hole on my wardrobe, by the anger of SOBs ofcourse...Where are your balls? Why can't you speak out your point direct infront of me? This is what i call SOBs! Chicken! Coward! "Ball-less" freaks! Barbarian's matter will never solve by speech, so it is useless if you try to solve with it! So, like it or not, you have to solve with a non-civilize bastard's way, I am always ready! Both my speech and my FIST do!!! But you are light years uglier than a barbarian! You talk trash infront of others, making plans probably, backstabbed me! Words of insult served as my breakfast that morning! Everyone turned againts me, looking at me like one of a kind! I stand alone, I fight alone! Never expect any help from anyone, no backups. But i want you to be aware that, I am Ready for anything from you! Expect the worst from me if you ever backstab me again! No one will ever know who am i untill i pull off my mask!

"Timeout", this is the chocolate wafer snack by Cadbury. Taste so yummy as it has the power to melt your heart even though you just take a tiny bite. One special thing about this wafer finger is the "flake" in it. It is the inner part of the milk chocolate that looks like folded silk. The thin wafer biscuit is then laid on both side of the "flake" and is covered by the unique Cadbury milk chocolate... Although the snack-bar size is available, but i still prefer this small-bar size one, why? Easier to chew and my throat will feel uncomfortable if I "whack" the whole snack bar in a shot. Same applies when I am having a big con of "connetto" ice-cream, I will take only a few bite and put it back into the fridge for the next ice cream-mood to come. Sounds unhygienic huh?? But I like it! Well guys, do try this, trust me, this is the best snack after your meal if you are thinking what to have for your desert... =)

 Nike Air Flight Baller AP….This is my first pair of Nike basketball shoe after I ramp off my previous Black Reebok DMX into a bunch of smelly fabric + rubber which has served my elephant foot for more than 2 years. This new baby definitely leaves a big hole in my cash-skinny wallet after I walk out happily from Studio R sports outlet in Sunway Pyramid with a big orange Nike Just Do It box. When I was sitting on the crouch fitting the shoe, I saw a little boy was also fitting his pair of Nike kids sandal and his father was beside him probably waiting for this young fella who looks like only 5-6 years old to get himself satisfy and leave the tough job for his father at the cashier later on. Then my eyes focused towards his father’s foot, guess what, I saw only a pair of cheap BATA(Buy And Throw Away, hihihi) slippers…Wow, this young fella sure knows how to enjoy life compare to me! I think I am wearing only a pair of ‘Leepok’ shoe which bought from pasar malam in a cowboy town where I grew up when I was at that kid’s age and a pair of China made “Xiao Yao” brand white school shoe when I was in secondary school…After more than 2 decades only I got my first pair of Nike basketball shoe(with my own hard-earned cash of course!), but that young fella can go out chasing around with his friend on evening at the playground with a 3-digit-price sandal. Is this a good thing for that young fella? Well, leave it to you all to judge….For me, I would like to thank my parents for bringing me up well without turning me into a ‘manja kia’ and I appreciate everything that I earned for myself. I am having a hard time with my current life and my future is still foggy. Let’s just keep my fingers crossed for a brighter and a better one…..

29072006, I am a college student where I am not allow to go out during weekdays and even have a curfew during weekends. I have to do paper work, letter writing, to apply to my Officer in charge if I want to go out during weekdays. Even if I am lucky enough to get my officer’s approval, I will be out from my college with my uniform, ewww!…..so not to say go Mid Valley after class for a new released movie with my student metric card during weekdays to save a few bucks on the student price, I cant even go out to “lepak” at mamak stall with the aroma of the Ah Ne’s teh-tarik and the crispy yummy roti-planta…So what to do if my tummy starts it’s “thundering of hunger” at late night when I am reading my novel or playing my computer games or watching tv? Normally I will just cook a packet of “Mamee asam laksa”, but I don’t know whether nowadays the packet of instant noodle becomes smaller and smaller or my tummy has became bigger and bigger, one packet will still leave a hole in my stomach unfulfilled, and if I “whack” two packets in a shot, I will feel sick of it. So this is the perfect alternative after I feel sick of “mamee”! What’s inside?? haha, a “makan’ monster like me wont let the food that goes inside my mouth sounds simple… Before I toast this pair of bread, I fried an egg using that toaster(haha, creative huh?), and I put it in between the bread and add a piece of cheese and toast it over again! whoahaha! The cheese melted on the fried egg and the toast bread taste perfect!! Wanna have a bite? I will try out on melted cheese and tuna next time…so guys, call this toll-free number to place your order now 1-300-xxx-584…haha =)

27072006...Get my hair cut two days ago, guess wat, it only cost me 5bucks and the hair cuting skill of the "abang" definitely can be compete with the stylist from those expencive salon at Mid Valley. The price can cause someone to get heart attack or fainted infront of the salon entrance. One of the best thing in my Uni is the hair cut price, but there is still a bad thing behind, that is, our hair cant get too long(not like the taiwan gay group,F4) which depends on the seniority, and must be smart and well manage at most of the time...I've tried this hair styling clay form Gatsby and it realy brings a brand new experiance for me instead of using styling gel. Try it! But the price is more costly compare to hair gel or styling mousse. This small 50g pack's price tag is Rm 15.90, but you can get it from any Watson outlet for a 10 percent discount. Better cover up my face just incase it'll make you lose your appetite..hehe =)

 25072006...I got only one class in my Tuesday's time table, attended right in time today before the lecturer enters the class. She gave us a briefing about the subject just after she starts her lecture, i felt like this is a hard-to-tackle subject but luckily i understand every word that came out from her mouth from the beginning till the end of the period...hmm, is not too bad actualy =)...

 
I tried to be hapy,but i cant...
i tried to make myself feel better,but i failed...
I cant get rid of the feeling of loneliness,because i am a loner...
I am desperately in blue...
struggling in a lonely world without friendship nor love...
i don't know where is my faith...
i began to give up...

life is miserable...
life is getting bored n bored...
everything is fake n unreal...
loneliness is invading into life day by day...
no one cares, no one concern...
future is foggy...
frenz r fake...
family mind their own buisness...
love r unreal...
no such thing as the 'one'...
no such thing as freedom...
money is grabing ma neck tighly...
religion is not making the world peace..
races makes gap between ppl...
where is the 'home' for me? i cant find,cant find...
no place to go, to dry ma eyes...
enjoy life to the fullest?talking rubbish...
frenship forever?talking trash...
forever love? faithless...
falling from grace...
losing faith in everything...
lost...