Harlows!!! Its been a long time i did blog. Well, i had been busy lately with examinations. Mugging all the way. Its been stressful lately. School, friends, family, etc. I am so glad that semester one is over, partly over. Just waiting for ma attachment this coming few weeks. I hope that i get good assistant nurse and staff nurse to click with.

Well, as for me and ma boyfriend, our relationship had been 13 months ++. I just cant wait to get married and be with him once i get a stable job with a stable income. I mean for now im still schooling right even though the nursing course was somewhat like a courier to me.

As for ma friends, i just met ma secondary school friends last friday. We went shopping at orchard and i bought maself two dresses and one t-shirt and shorts. Its so wonderful to see them. 'Long time no see mah'. I miss them so much. I cant wait for this coming wednesday. We are going to sentosa beach to tan together. As for tomorrow, 28 of August, im going out with ma boyfriend to the beach too. I told him that im going to get black, not tan skin!! Haha..

As for ma poly friends, i had not been in good terms with them. We cant click. Guess what, im still pissed off with one of the Malay girl in ma class. She is a 'damn hyprocrite'. She used to say bad things about another Malay girl in ma class and now she is in good terms with her. What the heck is happening man? Now, that girl that used to be critized thought that im the one who had been saying bad things about her to other people. I admit it i did critized her a bit though but im not the only one and im not the first one who critized her. Theres so many girls out there that doesnt seemed to like her. I also wonder why guys can click with her? Is it because she is clever, Tanjong Katong girls mah.. I dont know the actual reason but whatever it is ma boyfriend said to ignore what is happening and just dont bother about them too much. Yes, of course i may not bother but this is affecting me because we are in the same class. Well, im just going to leave it to fate and do ma own stuff. You know be apart from them and move on with life. I thought poly life is going to be great but i guess some things are meant to be that way.

Every moment as the clouds roll by.. I look up in the sky and think through about ma life.. How lucky i am to have you.. U make me feel like a star.. Shining brightly in the night.. Feeling special like a princess.. Make me happy and laugh like a clown when we are together.. Be there for me and give me hugs, telling me that everything's going to be fine when im down.. Looking through ma eyes and telling me that we are going to be together one day.. Hold me tight when we know that we are going to miss each other.. I have never felt so wonderful in ma life.. Started thinking that life is actually beautiful since you step in ma life.. Had been thinking before that life is meaningless and meant nothing to just this ordinary human being who created a lot of mistakes in the past.. Hoping that God would forgive her for all the Sins she has done.. Dady nazry, you are really special in ma life..Has shown me the true path of life.. Telling me never to look back and to start afresh.. Giving all the love and care that i ever needed.. Being with me every seconds, no matter on the phone or face to face.. Now, i really want you to know that i will always be by your side.. Giving you all the love and care that you ever need.. Hugging you when you need ma comfort and when youre down.. Telling you that i will be your one and only love till eternity as i promise.. Sharing our life together, sorrows and happiness.. I really love you, ma only precious dady nazry!!

Now, im just missing your warm hugs, your wet lips, your soft touch and your brown eyes.. I cant wait to meet you next tuesday!!

Toddles...

Well, guess what? Ma favorite pet that i was talking about yesterday just died this morning. I still couldnt get over it. Im sooo down because she was the only pet that was very loving, obedient, yet understanding towards ma feelings in a certain way. Im the only one in ma family who has been taking care of her since she was a baby. Everytime when i was holding her, she would just keep quiet and look at me in that angelic face. She would lie down sideways while i was rubbing against her ears. She wouldnt like it if i were to blow against her face as she would give me that sarcastic look. Now, im just wishing that she would not have gone because without her, i felt a great sense of lost. She was the only pet i could pour out ma feelings. Everytime, when im down, i would sit beside her house and share ma problems. She would just gave me those looks as if she knew what im feeling at those point of times.

This was all ma fault. I guess she passed away because she did not have enough rest, or she was suffocating from the beach sand which got stuck on her nostrils, or she was not able to adapt to the hot weather. All this happened because i brought her along to the beach by using a pet carrier. I knew i should have just let her stay at home and have plentiful of rest. As you know hamsters only are active at night time and sleep in the day time. Even though some people might think that it died because its old, i knew that those werent the reasons. She had only been living probably near that a year or so. As the only pet owner, somehow, i might be able to feel what the she felt.

I could sense that she was terribly sick as ma boyfriend and i were on our way home. She was keeping quiet all the time and rarely move an inch. She was just looking at us as if telling us that she was really sick, with her eyes not fully opened. I kept telling ma boyfriend that ma only precious love was probably feeling sick but ma boyfriend kept comforting me that she was only tired and she just needed a rest. Finally, i presumed that she was going to be alright. Around 5 or 5+ in the morning, i woke up only to hear the sound of ma pet breathing suffocatingly. I went to check on ma baby but i felt that i saw her body was moving as she was breathing. I went to the toilet and after that, i went to check on her again and saw that she was not moving at all. Her whole body was stiff. She seemed that she died in her sleep as her eyes were close and she died in the house's tunnel. Now, i felt a sense of regret and sorrow. The only pet left was LaLa, KiKi's younger sister. I could sense that LaLa knew her sister died because she was not active, running around, as usual. LaLa seemed solemn and quiet after that. If only i could turn back time, I would not have brought along KiKi to the beach.

Wow, its been so long i had not updated ma blog. Well, ma life has been going on smoothly for the past couple of days. In order to make my story short, i would just sumarise what i had been doing today.

Guess what did i do today. Well, its beach day again. But certainly today's beach day was different. I brought along my pet and my boyfriend to the beach. My pet name is KiKi. She is a hamster that i had been taking care of since last year. I guess now she is probably about 1 year old. Its sad to say that hamsters cant live long. I brought ma pet out on the beach and she just coudnt stop moving here and there. But after a while, she got exhausted and was trying to sleep while on our way home.

I also brought ma boyfriend out to our new makan place at Causeway Point, the Banquet. The place is quite big and there are several stalls which you can choose from. Even though the place is big, still its kinda difficult to book a place to seat. However, i didnt like the part that there were many 'makciks', malay aunties, around. This is simple because i know a lot of them like to gossips about other people.

Lastly, i felt angry when i remebered about one of the malay uncle outside Delifrance at Causeway Point just now. He kept looking at me and my boyfriend in a sarcastic way even though we did not find any fault against him. Maybe, its because Asian are more conservative against the way we act in public and our way of dressing. If you know what i mean why did he have to look at us in that way..

To end ma long ended story, i just cant wait for this coming Tuesday as i am going to meet ma loved ones again, who else, ma boyfriend la. Together, we will bring along ma another pet, LaLa, for window shopping maybe. She is also a hamster, KiKi's sibling. Ouch, i still have not touch on ma school work to revise for the upcoming exam. Sooo lazy...

Beach Day + Shopping Day..

Last Sunday, I went to watch a soccer match between my boyfriend's team and his opponent team. I realised that his team had improved quite a lot based on the previous match and the current match. His team had almost scored several goals for the 1st half but missed those incredibulous shots. Even tough the score was nil, im still proud to say that they did a good performance as this match was between the '1st from the top team-opponent' against the 'last from the bottom team-my boyfriend's team'. Depressingly, boths teams could not battle against each other for the second half as it was raining heavily. Worst still, the match was cancelled and postponed to start all over again for a new match.

After a tiring day for being a soccer supporter, my boyfriend and I went to eat at Harbour Front shopping centre food court. I encountered this horrible annoying lady at the drink stall who was totally mentally super deaf, well actually she is normal. I wanted to buy a large cup of Ribena, my most favourite drink, but in the end, i bought a small cup of Ribena. I told her i wanted a large cup but she said, "two cup hah?". Then, i said, "one cup only". In the end, she gave me a small cup and i insisted of having the large cup. I was so pissed off when she said, "next time, tell earliar la". What the hell was she talking! Didnt i tell her earlier enough that i wanted a large cup! AFter having lunch, we headed to Sentosa to enjoy the clean sandy beach and blue sea at Palawan. I was quite frustrated as i had bought a tanning lotion and wanted to tan my body. But in the end, the weather started to change and there was a slight drizzle. Bad mood day, huh?

Soon after, my day went quite well. My boyfriend and I built 'so-called' a sandcastle but it rather looked like a tortoise?Hmm..We took some pictures of ourselves being buried in the sand. The most romantic part of the day was my boyfriend gave me a seductive massage at the back of my body. Haha, being preferred to term it as "so-called seductive". After spending an evening at the beach, he deicded to send me home.

Crazy Lecturer!!

Yes!! Today is finally the day that i had my practical exam. I was unlucky to have an examiner who is a pain in the ass. I was qutie envy that my groupmate got a better examiner than me. The lecturer keep bombarding me with all her stupid questions that is not useful to me. The worst part was, even though i made some steps correct, she keep saying that i got it all wrong and making me feeling inferior than her. Luckily, i guess im glad enough that she passed me for my overall. But still, im not satisfied with her rude and sarcastic reactions towards me.

I cant brood about it for long anyway. Well, i feel that my day was not as wonderful as yeterday. Im quite exhausted today and i had been sleeping the whole evening. I guess the cause its because i slept quite late yesterday, more of playing online games but a little less studying for the practical. At least i had been prepared and its better than nothing right? Hehe..

Last but not least, thanks to all my friends who had been wishing me good lucks and give me all the confidence that i had ever need to pass this practical. Looking forward for this upcoming sunday. Yeah! Going to the beach with my boyfriend. Lets have some fun in the sun!!!

Toddles...

Sweet Deliciously Wonderful Day

I went to school earlier today to have a clinical practice. Guess what?? The room is fully booked. Oh gosh! I hadnt had the chance to practice for my clinical practical exam..which is TOMORROW!! At least i manage to make up some notes for them.. Haha.. Slackers.

Well, i spent my day quite boring yet romantic. In school, i had 2 hours of boring lectures. After that, i had to do a project with my groupmates. Gosh, my ICA (project assessment) is this coming Wednesday and my group had not even prepared for anything yet.. Haha.. Slackers.

Around in the evening, I went to meet my boyfriend near his workplace. We had our dinner taken at Pizza Hut. Damn, our stomach were full. Pan barbeque pizza, beef lasagne, calamari, spicy drumlets, onion rings and criss-cross potato.. Yummy Yum!!

To all my peeps, wish me the best of luck for my clinical practical exam ya!!

Toodles..