i Am nEvEr g0nnA bE thE girL wh0 ALwAys runs AftEr y0u. s0 0bsEss thAt it sEEms y0u cAn't brEAthE. i'm tirEd 0f bEing such A f00L, wAiting f0r y0u t0 L0vE mE --whEn y0u rEALLy cAn't. m0vin 0n is such A tAsk. i Am trying ALL my bEst t0 f0rgEt y0u. i kn0w this is rEdundAnt. i wAnnA LivE my LifE with0ut y0u in it. t0 hAvE s0mEb0dy wh0 kn0ws my w0rth And w0n't LEt mE g0 bEcAusE hE givEs up 0r hE d0Esn't L0vE mE. i wAnt t0 hAvE A rEALti0nship thAt stAnds with frEEd0m. i wAnnA bE hAppy. but my hAppinEss mEAns EACh singLE m0mEnt with y0u. bEcAusE y0u ArE my hAppinEss. y0u'rE thE rEAs0n why i smiLE & i c0ntinuE finding LifE bEcAusE 0f y0u.

thErE's s0 much hAtE in my hEArt thAt i cAnn0t c0ntAin. i hAtE y0u f0r mAkin mE fEEL this wAy And f0r ALL thE stupid things y0u've sAid t0 mE. i hAtE EvEry w0rd y0u sAid whEn i'm EAgEr t0 ListEn. And y0u LEft mE br0kEn. And n0w i'm numb. it's bEcAusE 0f y0u thAt's why i'm scArEd t0 L0vE AgAin. it's bEcAusE 0f y0u thAt i f0rg0t my w0rth. y0u mAdE mE fEEL usELEss. And i w0n't pErmit Anyb0dy t0 d0 thE sAmE thing t0 mE AgAin. i hAtE y0u with ALL thE L0vE i hAvE f0r y0u. yEs i stiLL L0vE y0u. but i wiLL st0p sh0wing it t0 y0u. 'c0z y0u d0n't dEsErvE it.

is it rEAL whEn thEy sAy thAt m0ving 0n mEAns L00king f0r An0thEr? t0 f0rgEt him And givE it t0 s0mE0nE ELsE? EvEn if thAt s0mEb0dy wiLL sEEm LikE hE wAs tAkEn f0r grAntEd f0r A m0mEnt? And whEn y0u LEArnEd t0 L0vE thAt s0mE0nE cAn y0u sAy thAt it's rEALLy L0vE?

it's s0 ir0nic h0w L0vE c0mEs int0 0ur LivEs. And h0w it LEAvEs us fL0Ating in n0whErE. It's s0 ir0nic yEt AmAzing, whEn it c0mEs unExpEctEdLy And y0u find y0ursELf inL0vE.

i hAtE mEn wh0 sticks in thE rELAti0nship just f0r SEX.

i'm inL0vE. i dunn0 why. but whEnEvEr i think 0f y0u. i fEEL s0 hAppy And thAnkfuL thAt wE'rE friEnds. yEAh! wE'rE just friEnds. but i'm thAnkfuL bEcAusE thErE is s0 much timE f0r us t0 gEt t0 kn0w EAch 0thEr. And i w0n't rush L0vE. i'LL wAit f0r thE right L0vE. thE right pErs0n And thE right timE. if thErE's such A thing. ;)) i'm wiLLing t0 wAit. c0z im scArEd t0 gEt hurt AgAin. i d0n't wAnnA risk my rEc0vErY. n0t s0o0 s00n. i wAnt t0 L0vE but i d0n't wAnnA c0mmit. i'm scArEd t0 fAcE thE nightmArEs i hAd in mY pAst rELAti0nships. s0 much c0wArdicE in mY systEm. I wAs s0 AffEctEd bEcAusE i L0vEd s0 much. I gAvE my ALL. And i nEvEr g0t thE chAncE t0 gEt thE sAmE Am0unt 0f L0vE thAt i wish hE c0uLd givE mE. but thAt wAs 0vEr. And i'm struggLin t0 bring bAck ALL thE hAppy m0mEnts thAt hAd hAppEnEd in mY LifE. i'LL LivE LifE with L0vE And n0t with hAtrEd.

AyAw k0 nA umAsA, AyAw k0 nA mAsAktAn. AyAw k0 nA. pEr0 kAyA k0 pA. hEhE.guL0 k0 n0? pLEAsE bArE with mE.. =D

I hAtE pE0pLE tELLing mE whAt t0 d0.
I hAtE pE0pLE tELLing mE whAt thEy sEE 0r hEAr Ab0ut mE.
I hAtE pE0pLE mAking mE fEEL i'm diffErEnt.

I wAnnA bE kn0wn As A uniquE individuAL. S0mEb0dy wh0 w0n't bE judgEd EAsiLy.

0h i'm nEw i dunn0 whAt t0 d0..